TGIF

I'm so HAPPY its Friday ... which means 1 more sleep til our reunion ...

I'm so looking forward to it even though I feel so CRAPPY!!!

I also have flu now thanks to my wonderful hubby who sweats so much at night and holds me so close ... ok I want him to still hold me close ... but not sweat me wet ... (huh? does that sound right?) Varney's cold seems to be clearing up (touch wood).

I hope I'm not setting myself up for DISAPPOINTMENT, cause I'm so excited for tomorrow. This weekend is gonna be great, reunion tomorrow morning, visiting D, my friends braai and Sunday chillax!!!!

New Moon is beginning to bore me a bit, must be because Edward left Bella. Ah well, will read it on Sunday, I might just finish the book.

Tonight, I'm gonna doctor myself ... med lemon and Stoney here I come!!!

Enjoy your weekend ...

Kim
xoxoxoxo

Insignificant

I feel so insignificant today. Am I really so caught up with myself that I don't care about Randy?

Let me tell you why I feel this way.

He is sick, since yesterday. After I keep on telling him that he must dress himself warm. He only wears a jersey, with no T-shirt or vest and a light summer jacket. Last night he had a terrible cough and I offered him medicine, which he refused. About a minute later he drank it. Then I gave him 2 panado's for his headache. He slept well and was sweating the whole night, which I think is good so that he can sweat the flu out.

This morning while we got ready, I made the bed, even though it was his turn, because he looked weak. I offered to rub his chest and back with Vicks and once again he refused. I told him to rather stay home and that I would let his manager know, he refused. I then offered to drive to work and still he refused.

I called him when I was settled at my desk and he told me he ate a yogurt but he feels more sick and weak and his body is so sore and that he vomited (TMI). I then asked him if I should take him home and he said no, because he has alot of work to do and cant complete it tomorrow because he is on training. I didn't know about the training?

His sister emailed me to tell me that I must tell him to phone his father when he leaves work early because they heard he was sick? Now, I'm thinking ... WHEN WOULD HE HAVE TOLD ME HE IS GONNA LEAVE EARLY AND PROBABLY GO AND SIT BY HIS DAD!!!!!!!!!

Am I over-reacting?

Kim
xoxoxo

ME!

Today's post is all about ME!!!! An update actually ...

Ok lets start (emotions and all that jazz this week):

Excitement
I am very excited for this coming weekend, just 2 more sleeps, then the big day ... our class REUNION!!!! Whoop whoop!!!!

Funny
LOL, I called out this woman whose name is Queenky and actually called Kinky and all the males on our floor LOL at me and said "Kim please leave your bedroom thoughts at home."

Anger
I was angry at DH the other night who took 2 hours to hire 4 movies and ended up having a dop with a friend ... MEN cant live with them, cant kill them ...

Love
Everyday I am dumbstruck at how much love I have ... for EVERYONE ... at first I used to be low on inclusion but since going for me LEAP course I'm climbing up on inclusion ...

Fertility
Well, as you know I'm seeing a homeopath/midwife and she is helping me get my cycles on track and my womb stronger ... well she mentioned that I will fall preggies in Nov 09, so I'm kinda looking forward to and I can say my mind is at peace with this info ...

POA
Seeing homeopath, taking pregnavit and probiflora cause I think I might have a case of Candida so better safe then sorry ...

That is it for now ...

With love
Kim
xoxoxo

Woohoo

I'm so excited ... just 5 more sleeps then its OUR reunion ...

I can't wait any longer ... to see all my old school mates and catch up ... from the emails that have been going up and down it seems like most of us are married.

I really cant wait and promise to take LOTS of pictures so that I can show you guys.

Just a quick update .... (I must really stop with all these 'quick' updates)

This weekend was fab, although I forgot it was Father's day and had to dash from shop-to-shop on Saturday trying to find Randy the PERFECT gift. Varney had made him two cards so we were actually just looking for a gift, BUT could not find one.

So when we got home I asked him what he would like as we had no gift for him and he said he wants a bottle of Hennessey (sp) which me and Varney bought and wrapped for him - LOL, I know he already knew what his gift was going to be.

Needless to say we spent the day indoors. Randy had a stomach bug and didn't even want to eat, but when I took his favourite dessert from the fridge he could not resist.

Happy Monday Folks!!!!

Tired of this!!!!!!!

Today is one of those days that comes every month just before we get paid where I dont like my husband!!!!!!!

He is driving me up the wall!!!!

We just cant seem to budget together....

Decisions ...

man living your life is SO tough ...

I cant decide what to do next ... I mean I have got alot that I want to do, but I just don't know where to start ...

This whole crap saying of taking as it comes is such a big fat lie ... if life was that easy this world would have been PERFECT!!!!

I know I want to live a happy fulfilled life, but I just don't know where to start and where to stop.

hopefully I will see the light at the end of the tunnel .... SOON!

PS: thanks Nix for your help with D's blog

I'm back ...

from training and VERY thankful that I went on it ... the course I went on was an eye opener and really made me think ...

I learned so much and never in my life cried so much ... it was a leadership course but more on being the leader of your life ... there were so many underlying events that I was bottling up and hid away from people, but this course made me open up and deal with it ...

I have asked Randy to go on this course as well ... so that he can understand where I'm coming from ...

here are our updates:

Me:

Happy and chirpy ... LOL and I have finally taken the BIG step ... on hormone therapy ... will see how it goes

Randy:

Happy ... thinks I'm going crazy cause all of a sudden I'm so peaceful and happy ... LOL

Varney:

Happy ... he is at home cause the teachers decided to strike ... damn teachers ... but he is happy he still has a runny nose, but other than that he is doing just fine ... I have decided to dedicate a blog to him to journalise his life ... so feel free to pop over ...

It's the weekend baby!!!!!!!

So it's FINALLY weekend. Time to unwind and relax!!!!!

This weekend is not going to be too busy. Tonight Randy's going to the gym, while I sneak off to a herbalist/midwife.

I'm going to get something from her to regulate AF. This darn AF shows up whenever she feels like it and just when I think she'll stay away she comes visiting.

Randy knows in a way that I'm going, but he thinks its to take my friend. So in part I'm telling the truth, cause my friend really is going to go see her and I'm telling a white lie as I'm going for myself. LOL!

OK, then I'm going to drop the movies we hired off and then spend some time with the 2 men in my life.

Tomorrow, I don't know what we've got planned, but I hope its fun and exciting.

Oh before I forget I still have to go see my class of 2003, as they organising a reunion. I'm so looking forward to seeing all of them again. Finding out who is married, who got kiddies or buns in the oven ... It will be super!!!

PS: before I forget, I'm on training next week so I'll post on 15 June again ... that's if I'm not too busy ...

Enjoy your weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love

Kim

Grilling Goodness

Hi there people of Blogland. Feel free to copy onto your blog.

1. Do you like a scent that others might find strange?

I like the smell of petrol when filling my car with it. I dont know why I love this smell ... I just like it.

2. Are you a pack rat or do you purge regularly?

I hate to admit it but I am a pack rat ... I clutter and 'save' too many old things. I have however started getting rid of all my old clothing.

3. What is your favorite thing to do in the summer that keeps you out of the heat?

Sjoe, I believe I dont have any, but if i can avoid going out I stay indoors.

4. What is your favorite number? Why?

It has to be number 8. I dont know why. I think it's got something to do with the month I was born in as well as Varney.

5. What color do you choose most when painting your nails?

pink or clear

6. Have you done anything abnormal this week?

nope.

7. What's the best thing happening this weekend?

I'm going to see a herbalist this afternoon just to get this stupid AF on track ... and I get to spend this weekend with Varney and Randy ... woohoo!!!!

8. Did you have to dissect anything when you were in school?

yip, for biology we had to dissect a frog ... grossssss ...

The day that you were born

August 4, 2000

It was a great day, not too hot, not too cold. Just warm.

I did not know I was in labour, I thought I had Braxton hicks, as I got a false alarm two weeks before. You still like scaring me like you did the weeks prior to your birth date.

I got up from bed that morning and went to the bathroom to take a relaxing bath. The doctor said that it helps with the contractions. I did not have a sign, but somehow I knew the EDD (estimated due date) on your first scan at 13weeks, was the right one.

After taking the bath I made sure that everything was packed and ready to go. Grandma wanted to make me breakfast but I had no appetite, which was strange as I used to pig out when I was pregnant. (No wonder you weighed 3.5kg's) Instead, I just had a cup of strong black coffee as Ouma R said that it will make the contractions stronger and in no time you would be here.

11.00am

The contractions started getting stronger, but I did not want to go to hospital just yet and I started walking up and down in my bedroom. I was so nervous, but yet so excited that I would soon get to meet you face-to-face and just hold you in my arms and kiss your forehead. I knew deep down inside that I will still get to do it the same day.

1.00pm

I could not stand the pain anymore and decided it was time to go to the hospital. We all jumped into the car and raced off to the hospital. When we got there I was taken straight to the maternity ward. The doctor then came to check how far I had dilated. I was then only 5cm's dilated. The doctor then told the nurse to put the monitor on so that they could check your heartbeat and check my contractions. I laying there on the bed for about 1/2hour then I decided I am going to start walking up and down to bring the contractions on.

The pain was starting to get more serious and eina when I went to the toilet and saw that my mucus plug had come down. I was excited as I knew time was drawing near. Grandma watched me nervously as I walked up and down.

3.30pm

The doctor came to check on us again and was very angry at mommy for taking the monitor off. By then I was 8cm's dilated. I just looked at him while he was shouting at me and up until today I still don't know what he shouted at me. I decided to lay on the bed and be a good girl, when all of a sudden I found the urge to pee. I got up and off the bed when Grandma also told me to lay down, that's when my water broke. Gushing down my legs. I decided to make a run for it and ran to the loo, but the water wouldn't stop. When it finally did (or when I thought it had) I got up and walked back to the ward while it was still running down my legs.

At that time I didn't care anymore as I was so tired and in pain. I got back to the room and got onto the bed again. The contractions were so close to each other. I felt like crying, but knew it will be worth it in the end.

4.00pm

Grandma went looking for the doc when a nurse came by to check if I was ready for labour and when she looked she saw I was 10cm's dilated. She rushed me to the labour ward and called the doctor, who came running in with Grandma.

He calmed me down and told me to lay on my back and put my hands under my thighs and push when I feel the need to. Which I did not even waiting for him to finish speaking. In three pushes you were out and I heard you crying, while the nurse calmed you down. They then handed you to Grandma who handed you to me and I can remember the joy and love I felt. I cried just looking at you and kissed you forehead, while the doctor was stitching me up.

They then took you to go and wash you and mommy got to wash as well.

They wheeled me to our room. Unfortunately we were 6 mommy's in the room. They told me to sleep a little and to eat so that when u came to visit me I could breastfeed.

I still remember it like yesterday, when I was sleeping and just heard a feint cry that grew harder and harder. I still said to myself poor baby, when the nurse walked in holding you and you were the one screaming the roof off. You were so hungry and could not wait to latch unto my nipples. I fed you and watched you fall asleep. I burped you, just before the nurse came back to fetch you.

I was so overwhelmed with joy that night that I could not sleep at all. I couldn't wait for them to bring you to me again....

My darling son I love you and always will ...

Miracle by Celine Dion

You're my life's one Miracle,

Everything I've done that's good

And you break my heart with tenderness,

And I confess it's true

I never knew a love like this till you....

You're the reason I was born

Now I finally know for sure

And I'm overwhelmed with happiness

So blessed to hold you close

The one that I love most

With all the future has so much for you in store

Who could ever love you more?

The nearest thing to heaven,

You're my angel from above

Only God creates such perfect looooove

When you smile at me, I cry

And to save your life I'll die

With a romance that is pure heart,

You are my dearest part

Whatever it requires,

I live for your desires

Forget my own, needs will come before

Who could ever love you more?

Well there is nothing you could ever do,

To make me stop, loving you

And every breath I take,

Is always for your sake

You sleep inside my dreams and know for sure

Who could ever love you more?

This song explains exactly how I feel about you.

MOMMY LOVES YOU MORE THEN ALL THE RAINDROPS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!!

The weekend

Well our weekend was great... although Varney is sick with flu.

So on Friday, I got home and spent some time with him. Nursing him and attending to his every need. We spent the night watching movies while he slept with his head on my thighs, as he did not want to fall asleep in his bedroom alone. When he finally slept I took him to his bed.

On Saturday morning we got up early and I phoned my friend (whose DH is a pharmacist) to get some medication for Varney. I then went to the pharmacy to get it and when I got home he was asleep again. So I finished cleaning (Mom was at a funeral) and Randy went shopping for veggies and then I got into bed again next to Varney.

What a mission it was to get him to eat so that I could give him medicine and when he didn't want food I gave him a yogi-sip and some juice, just so that he had something in his tummy. After his fever broke he was up and wanted to play playstation. Now because he is doing a bit bad at school, we don't actually want him concentrating on playstation too much. So DH's heart was breaking for his little man feeling so feint that he broke in and said yes he can play playstation.

We had a potjie planned for Saturday and wanted to cancel but decided to continue, so I was busy cleaning the veggies, while DH started the fire and Varney played playstation.

Saturday afternoon I decided to wash Varney so that he could put on clean PJ's and that I can rub his body with Puma Balm. He started crying and I could see that he was not feeling well at all. DH calmed him down and then carried him to the lounge so that he could lay on the couch and watch movies. Our guests arrived, but all my attention was with him so I was inside while everyone was laughing and enjoying each other's company outside.

Me and Varney went to bed at 8ish....

On Sunday we spent the day watching movies again and Varney looked much better, although I decided to keep him home today as it is so cold and I don't want his flu to get worse. Luckily my friend brought me some antibiotics for him.

OK that is our update for this past weekend ...

PS: join me tomorrow as I post one of my 'Blast from the Past'