Now I was supposed to be a man about it.
Shoulda never left your side.No way, no how.
Put too many years in this relationship.And it's not that serious for us to split.
Now I admit sometimes I make mistakes.But still I appreciate the love we make.
Now Kim please can we work this out.
Now I might say you can walk(But I don't mean it).
And I may tell you we're through(But I don't mean it, no, no).
Now I was supposed to be more understanding.Instead of tryin to be so damn demandin.
Kim I'm willing to drop my ego.And do the things I should have done and more.
See I know that I can be a better man .
Kim all you gotta do is take my hand.Promise this time,I'm goin all the way.
And show you all the reasons why you should stay.
See I never meant to break you down and make you cry.
Oh please Kim please turn back around don't you say goodbye.
Sometimes I know that I can take it Just a little bit too far,but my heart is good.
So Kim you don't have to worry.You're gonna see a change.Kim you know I love you.Even though I may not say it.

How could i??

How could i let things get so far.

How could i loose the only part of my life that made sense.

How could i hurt the only person who truly loved me.

How could i loose a love so precious.

How could I?

My whole life i've been looking for her.

My whole life i've been dreaming of her.

My whole life i've wanted to know who this angel will be...

My whole life i've wanted to know who's heart i will have.

and who will have mine.

Finally i could put a face on this angel.

i could see who is gonna take care of my heart.

i could see who was gonna take care of my love.

i could see who's heart i finally

was gonna have to protect.

why did i break this trust.

Why did i break this persons heart.

Why did i do what i did.

How could i loose my angel.

How could i loose my angels heart.

How could i loose my angels trust.

How could i loose her.

Why......

TGIF ... whoop whoop

Well today I feel better, although I have this headache. Nothing new on my side ....

anyways here is menu for today:

B: DF and a cup of tea

S: cup of soup

L: chicken and salad

S: Low GI popcorn

D: dunno ... but will be a healthy choice

Water: 2ltrs

I am going to really stick to my diet this weekend then next week I can have a break as it is my birthday and I'll eat what I want to ...

The gym called me yesterday, seems like I will start on Monday and they gonna give me a tour. Randy is going to get a backpack with goodies for referring me. I will have to go to the shops to buy me sportsbra's because I dont have any ... otherwise its gonna be a big problem ...

Tomorrow D's school has a parents day where we get to view to schoolbooks and chat to the teacher about his progress, etc. We are also going to get his report card and have decided that if he has improved we will take him out for the day to a movie and a bite to eat.

I'm also going to spend the afternoon with D so will take a picture of her preggy belly ... LOL

On Sunday we just going to chill and watch some movies ... we bought quite a few movies ... so it is something worth looking forward to ...

Anyways I hope everyone has a splendid weekend!!!!!!!!

Lotsa love

Kim

xoxoxo

Today

I feel so sad and despondent ... I don't know why ... and to top it off I lost a kg so I should really be very happy ...

I don't have much of a menu today:

B: 2 scrambled eggs, 1 slice cheese, cup of tea

S: DF

L: don't know yet ... didn't pack lunch

S: don't know

D: don't know ...

LND: vetkoek and mince

Water: 2ltrs

My motivation for today:

Infertility and obesity

Date updated: January 29, 2007

Hillary M. Wright, R.D., L.D.N

Content provided by Revolution Health Group

Almost every day, there are news updates on the intensifying obesity epidemic in the United States. Currently, about 65% of Americans are either overweight or obese — an increase of 25% over the last 30 years — and the numbers continue to climb.

Women with a body mass index greater than 25 are considered overweight, and those with a value above 30 are considered obese.Most people know that being overweight raises the risk of almost every major health problem, including cardiovascular disease, diabetes and some cancers. What hasn’t gotten as much attention is the fact that both obesity and being overweight can affect fertility as well.

Research has shown that a disproportionate number of women (about 40%) who seek infertility treatment are overweight or obese. A study involving more than 5,000 infertile women who were treated at an infertility clinic in Australia found that 23% of the subjects were considered overweight and 17%, obese. The results were published in the October 1995 issue of the journal Human Reproduction.Research also ties obesity to poorer outcomes in women who undergo in vitro fertilization (IVF).

For example, another study in the July 2005 issue of Human Reproduction tracked some 8,500 women who underwent IVF in the Netherlands and found that those who were overweight or obese had a significantly lower success rate of having a live birth as compared to normal-weight women. What’s the link?One common finding in obese women with fertility problems is a tendency towards abdominal obesity, or an “apple-shaped” body. Exactly how excess body fat affects fertility is not completely understood, but obesity is known to influence reproductive function in several ways:

* Obese women are more likely to menstruate irregularly or not at all. This is due to the presence of excess subcutaneous fat that produces large amounts of the estrogen hormone.
* Obese women are more likely to have problems with successful ovulation and a poorer response to fertility drugs.
* Obese women are at increased risk for miscarriage, both spontaneously and after infertility treatment.
* Obese women are also at higher risk of pregnancy-related complications such as gestational diabetes, hypertension and preeclampsia or toxemia, which poses a threat to both the mother and developing fetus.
* In addition, many obese infertile women suffer from a hormonal disorder called polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS).

PCOS is a major cause of infertility and is thought to affect 5% to 10% of women of reproductive age. Many researchers believe that the underlying problem in PCOS is that although insulin levels are normal, there is insulin resistance, a primary cause of type 2 diabetes. This is worsened by excess weight. It impacts fertility because the insulin resistance causes elevated circulating insulin levels that result in hormonal imbalances in the ovaries. These hormonal imbalances can then interrupt the normal cycle of ovulation and make it difficult to conceive.

Maintaining normal reproductive function requires a complex balance of sex hormones. Being overweight can upset this balance — with or without PCOS — and contribute to infertility in several ways:

* Excess abdominal fat can increase production of androgens, which are male sex hormones that are normally present in small amounts in normal women. Their levels need to stay consistent for normal ovulation to occur. If androgen levels soar, ovulation may be disrupted and conception cannot occur
* Excess body fat can trigger imbalances of the hypothalamus and pituitary hormones in the brain that are needed for normal ovulation.
* Even without a full diagnosis of PCOS, an obese woman can still have insulin resistance that leads to increased levels of circulating insulin. With more insulin in circulation, the balance of sex hormones in the ovaries can be disrupted, interfering with the delicate reproductive hormonal balance needed to trigger ovulation and contributing to infertility.

Not just a female problem

According to a recent study from the National Institute of Environmental Health Sciences (NIEHS) that involved more than 5,500 couples, men who are overweight or obese are also more likely to experience infertility than normal-weight men regardless of their age. The results were published in the September 2006 issue of Epidemiology.

An earlier study published in the May-June 2006 issue of the Journal of Andrology — the first study of male weight and couple fertility — suggested that male obesity can also cause hormone imbalances and might even lower a man’s sperm quality. Although more research is needed, findings from the NIEHS, a part of the National Institutes of Health in Bethesda, Md., suggest that every 20-pound increase in a man’s weight increases his risk of infertility by roughly 10%.

Rate your weight

In the past, doctors used weight charts to help determine whether a person was within a healthy weight range. Now they use a new method called body mass index, or BMI.

BMI is calculated using your weight and height and can help doctors determine whether someone might be carrying enough excess fat to be considered a health risk

For adults older than 20, BMI results are interpreted using standardized categories that are the same for both men and women:

BMI Weight Status
Below 18.5 Underweight
18.5 - 24.9 Normal
25.0 - 29.9 Overweight
30.0 and above Obese

While BMI is considered a good assessment tool for most people, some healthy individuals (for example, professional athletes) may rate as overweight because they have excess muscle contributing to their weight.

If your BMI puts you in the overweight or obese category and you’re having difficulty conceiving, you may want to talk to your doctor about whether excess weight could be a factor.

Lose weight, improve your fertility

The good news is that even modest amounts of weight loss can have a positive effect on fertility. “Weight loss of as little as 10% to 15% will enhance a woman’s chances of conceiving by normalizing sex hormone levels,” says weight researcher and reproductive endocrinologist David Ryley, M.D., of Boston IVF in Massachusetts.

So, for instance, a woman who weighs 200 pounds can increase her chances of conception by losing 20 to 30 pounds.

An important, added weight-loss bonus, according to Ryley, is that “obstetric complications such as pregnancy-induced hypertension and gestational diabetes will be reduced.”

However, a word of caution: Women who are too thin also have trouble getting pregnant. So the best approach is to maintain a healthy weight (i.e., one that is appropriate for your height and lifestyle).

Take action

Losing weight permanently happens in different ways for different people. Still, according to the Brown Medical School-based National Weight Control Registry, a database that chronicles the habits of more than 5,000 “successful losers” who’ve lost at least 30 pounds and kept it off for at least a year, people who win the weight battle share some common habits:

* Most registry participants maintain a low-calorie, lower-fat diet by adding fruits and vegetables, restricting certain foods, counting calories or using different types of portion control plans. Many keep food journals.
* Participants rarely skip breakfast, and most eat small meals 4 to 5 times per day.
* Seventy-five percent of participants weigh themselves at least weekly. If the needle on the scale creeps up, they fine-tune their eating and exercise habits in response.
* Most participants accumulate close to an hour of exercise every day, with walking being the most common form of activity.
* Here are some simple steps you can take to get your own weight loss rolling in the right direction:
* Move, move, move. Both long periods of exercise and short bouts of activity accumulated over the day are effective for weight loss.
* Spread out your food intake. Extreme hunger can lead to rapid overeating that leaves you feeling “stuffed.” Eating smaller meals throughout the day can help you avoid big pangs of starvation — and the associated binging.
* Aim for 5 or more servings of fruits and vegetables every day. They’ll help you feel full without loading you down with calories. Add a fruit to breakfast, munch on raw vegetables and fruits as snacks and include salads or cooked veggies with other meals.
* Watch your portions. Aim for a “healthy plate” that’s about half noncarbohydrate types of vegetables and fresh fruits, with the remaining half split between lean proteins (lean meat, skinless poultry, seafood, tofu or beans) and whole grains (brown rice, whole wheat pasta or whole-grain bread).
* Be selective about what you’re eating. Don’t just eat something because it’s there — make conscious food choices. If you shift into “eating overdrive” under pressure, talk to an expert about stress management strategies that don’t involve food.

Stay positive

The thought of trying to lose weight while enduring the stress of infertility may seem overwhelming, but don’t lose hope. Even small lifestyle changes that result in modest weight loss may be enough to help you conceive — and experience a healthier pregnancy.

After all, your desire to have a baby may be just the motivation you need to develop healthier habits!

Kim

xoxoxo

Motivation

Do u sometimes feel that you are alone in this race called dieting?

Do u feel like giving up?

Does it sometimes feel like you getting nowhere (weight-wise)?

Well girls, sometimes or most of the time I feel this way ... that is why I decided to post something motivational today ...

WEIGHT LOSS MOTIVATION


Motivation is one of the most important factors which determines how successful we are at what we do. It is the driving force that gives us the will to accomplish tasks and eventually succeed at reaching an ultimate goal. Motivation levels can vary each day depending on how we feel, or how we view certain experiences. For anyone to succeed at slimming motivation will be the most important part to work at, it will provide us with the determination to get up and exercise even if we don't feel up to it. Motivation also drives us to stick to the low fat selections and recipes required to keep our progress moving.
The strength of your motivation will determine how successful you are in your weight loss efforts as the more you progress and lose weight the more difficult it will be to lose more as the body is pushed past its natural set points. Many top conditioning coaching admit that its possible to gain amazing results when an individual's motivation is high, even if the training program is not "scientifically correct".

DEVELOPING WEIGHT LOSS MOTIVATION

Most dieters will have some degree of motivation as they have already decided to take action. The problem for many is keeping the levels high enough to prevent any relapse.
Work through some of the following ideas and see if these can increase your desire for success!


LEARN TO ACCEPT SELF:

The most common reason people lose interest in exercise / dieting is due to unrealistic goals. Some see the images in the media or television and this coveys the message of how we are supposed to look, adverts enforce these images with false promises like "you too can have a body like this!", and we believe it! When the desired goals aren't reached we're made to believe we have failed.
We need to put these images into prospective and realise that most of the population just do not have the genetic predisposition to look like the models in the magazines, plus most images are now adjusted by computers to look better than they actually are.
Learn to love yourself for who you are, not who you wish to be. Acknowledge that you need to improve your health or weight, but believe that you will do what you can to be the best you can possibly be. The constant pressure and stress of trying to turn yourself into someone you physically cannot be will stop, and it'll be an enormous weight off the shoulders, you'll be surprised at how good it will make you feel and how this can help drive your motivation to make realistic improvements. When we understand and appreciate our bodies, we are able to work with them, not against them!


FOCUS ON POSITIVES NOT NEGATIVES:

Many of us have a tendency to look at our bad points, however once you start to accept yourself it will be easier to focus on the positive side more. To make it easier try writing a list of all the good things in what you've done or what you like about your physical self. Practice running these positives through your mind regularly, it may take time but its surprising what you can believe if it is said enough times - remember the past believe that you could look like the models if you obtain the right diet!

if you don't reach a goal when you want, just focus on the fact that you will get there in time
remember how far you've got not how far you need to go
if you miss a workout one day don't worry just go back with more vigour to improve
remind yourself that a worthwhile pay-off lies ahead in an improved you
remember the exercise is improving your health and fitness and will help increase longevity
remember exercise has many psychological benefits including renewed confidence and self esteem
any type of action always drives motivation
To boost motivation some dieters need to development of a different "mind set". For some people hypnotherapy has work really well to help gain more control over the mind!

SET GOALS:

Setting goals has the advantage of focusing on what you intend to achieve. A goal acts as a form of mental contract with yourself and your degree of motivation will drive you to complete that contract. If the goal is too hard to achieve it can affect your success. The subconscious mind does not distinguish between big or little, it only knows success or failure. If you set a goal of four training sessions each week but only complete three then the mind sees this as a failure. For this reason you must set realistic and easily reachable goals. When you attain each goal it gives momentum to increase the level of motivation further.

Try these tips:
* write down your goals
* set easy goals often so you create a habit of success in the mind
* set measurable goals - I will lose 1 pound each week. This gives you something to go for
* tell friends and family about your goals for motivational support
* make any routine fun and exciting to help maintain interest
* try new challenging goals to stop your normal routine from becoming a chore
* reward your success on reaching a goal
* think positively, replace thoughts like "I can't" with "I can and I will"
* don't set goals that are too much too soon

This is my menu for today:

B: 1cup WW pronutro, 1 cup LF milk, 3 provitas, 500ml water.

8 o' clock: 1 cup of tea

Snack: LF yoghurt and a banana

Lunch: grilled chicken breast with boiled veggies (carrot, baby marrow, potato, broccolli)

Snack: DF

Supper: don't know yet ...

Water: aiming for 2 litres ...

Hope you enjoyed today's post!!!

PS: weighing in tomorrow

Kim

xoxoxo

Diet schmiet ...

so I have started the diet fuel and I have to say it doesn't taste bad at all ... everyone was preparing me for this yucky disgusting taste ... LOL or maybe I'm just different ...

ok cool so my menu is as follows:

B: WW pronutro, LF milk, cup of tea and a naartjie
S: DF and a banana
L: don't know yet ... craving chicken and veggies
S: LF yoghurt and a naartjie
D: steamed fish, mixed veggies and a baked potato

take care ...

Kim
xoxoxo

I'm bad ...

ok before I have a mental argument with myself ...

I'm bad cause I cheated this weekend starting on Friday ... Randy wanted KFC so we bought KFC for supper ... everything was going exceptionally well and then I gave in .. just like that ...without even blinking ...

so I decided I really need to get my mind and body into shape and was considering using GI Lean products, but then I decided on Herbalife, but I eventually opted for USN dietfuel ...

I bought myself a 2kg bottle/tin and am going to start using it as of tomorrow ... 'if at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off and try again" and its exactly what I'm going to do ...

Randy bought me a track pants and a running shoe so I might just join the gym sooner rather than later ... watch this space ...

Kim
xoxoxo

Before I forget

I have been so consumed with work today, its not even funny ... I have my own work to do, I'm standing in for this dude that is on leave and then my manager still has the nerve to email me his work?

Anyhow, complaining wont help now would it ...

I weighed in this morning and I am 500g down ... YAY ... it sounds little, but look at it this way ... 500g is as big a brick of butter ... so it is actually alot ... yesterday was O day, but I was too tired to BD, besides its so cold ... LOL

OK my menu today has been kinda banged up, that is because I was so hard at work this morning:

Breakfast @ 10am:
1 egg
2 rashers bacon
mushrooms
grilled tomato
2 slices wholewheat toast
1 cup of tea

Snack @ 12pm:
2 slices watermelon
2 slices pineapple
500ml water

Skipping lunch ... still feel okayish

Snack @ 3 pm:
grapes
100ml lf yogurt
500ml water

Dinner:
Don't know but Randy mentioned something of tuna salad and potato wedges ...

Water unlimited ...

Mwah ...

Kim
xoxoxo

Craving ...

cheese & onion samoosas ... mmm ... :-(

I CAN DO THIS!!!
I CAN STICK TO MY DIET!!!!

Ok ... my menu before I change my mind ... LOL ...

Breakfast:
1 cup of oats
1/2 cup low fat milk
2 sugars
1 glass of water
1 cup of tea

Snack:
apple & naartjie
500ml water

Lunch:
1 avo
provitas
1 cup of tea

Snack:
low fat yoghurt
special K bar
500ml water

Dinner:
dont know yet ...

Tomorrow is D-Day!!!

Kim
xoxoxo

I am ..

• actually getting the hang of this lifestyle change ...
• loving the new me
• enjoying my food
• not a coffeeholic anymore
• drinking more tea
• still trying to increase my water intake
• joining the gym in August ...

I am so proud of myself and cant wait to see how much I weigh on Thursday when I weigh again ...

ok so last night I had only half of my homemade twister/chicken wrap

My menu (Randy is joining in today)

B: 1 cup Allbran flakes and 1 cup lf milk 1 cup tea

S: 1 lf yoghurt

L: 1 homemade chicken wrap/twister

S: 1 naartjie and a handful of peanuts

D: homemade veggie soup with 2 rye bread (Varney is sick and requested soup)

Other: 1lt water/1 energade

Enjoy your day ...

Mwah

Kim

xoxoxoxo