Testing, testing ... 123

Ok so I have discovered email in a whole other way and would like to test it … I am emailing my blog and would just like to see if it actually does post. This will make life so much easier … SO, here goes ….

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I have been feeling so tired for the last week, by noon I cant even concentrate or keep my eyes open.

I think its got something to do with the fact that 1. I either go to bed to early ... (I normally get into bed by 9, but this past week I've been going to bed at 8 or 8.30pm, which is not so much earlier and I wake at 6) or 2. the fact that I haven't been going to gym this week.

My (.)(.) are also very EINA, especially when I lay on them. I don't think I will get a BFP this month and am not stressing too much about it, that is something I will start worrying about next year.

I cant wait for Christmas to come. I'm so in a hurry for it ... LOL and next week we will be having our year end function. We going bowling and then grabbing a bite at Spur.

Well, Varney is starting with his tantrum throwing so I will update in his blog.
Randy is still ok just stressing about his studies for next year.

And that is it ...

Finally its the weekend babe!!!

Well another week has gone by, which means we getting closer to Christmas.

I attended a workshop, on the job I do, yesterday and today and I am kapoet after all the input we had to give ...

I'm so happy its finally weekend, although its going to be a busy one ... they all have been for the last couple of months. Tomorrow I have to go shopping with my SIL and then get home and help Randy paint. So I'm hoping that Sunday will be nice and quiet.

Anyways, I think I'm in the 2WW - LOL, cause I had O pains on Wednesday evening ... my right ovary was throbbing and then yesterday I had ALOT of EWCM and off course we BD'ed ... I didn't wanna tell Randy that it might be O taking place, cause I just felt that I might be adding pressure ... hehehe ...

So maybe I will update with a BFP soon ...

PS: my ticker on OPM says I am still going to O, so will continue BD every 2nd day ...

Enjoy your weekend and keep it safe!!!

Kim

Blogland

I have noticed that blogland has been very busy lately ... I have been reading some of my fellow bloggers blogs, but have not been able to comment on the posts ...

Lately work has been so busy ... we heading towards the silly season ... which means our ATM's will be busy until the 24th Dec and then again on 31 Dec and then everyone is BROKE and the ATM's quiet down again ...

Christmas is just around the corner ... just 7w3d to go until Christmas ... and truthfully I haven't even bought a single gift and am stressing my a$$ off here ... I know now isnt the time to think of gifts as everybody is cash strapped, but at least gifts for the special people in my life ...

Our 2nd anniversary is also coming up and we decided we not going to make a fuss about it ... we just going out for a romantic evening, but we are NOT buying gifts for each other.

I am making progress on my diet having fallen off the wagon and am back at 81kg's and so proud, but what I'm even more proud is I have eaten a choccie in 3 weeks and last night when I was offered I declined. YAY to me!!!!!!!

Varney has developed a phobia, if I can call it that, for his dad. I dont know why but it has been a month since he has gone to his dad and it makes me feel bad, cause it probably looks like I'm keeping him from them.

On the TTC front, we are just going with the flow and leaving it up to God. If it happens we will be happy, if not we will try some day again. Reason, Randy is going to study as of next year and I'm thinking of doing a mosaic course. My manager wants me to do a study programme within the company, so I'm also considering it.

We have not done any more DIY work as we have been very busy, but will start this weekend again.

Well, I think this is it ... will update again ...

lots of huggies and lovies

Kim

AF oh AF!!!!!!!!

So the witch finally decided to make a grand entrance last night. Making my cycle 38 days long.

I am thinking of writing her a letter to notify her that she is not welcome anymore and that I wont be needing her services any longer - LOL.

In a way I'm happy to have AF, takes all the 'what ifs?' from my mind.

Will see what happens this month?!

Thanks ladies for always being here for me, I would probably be insane by now if it were not for you!!!!!!!!!


Mwah!!!

Kim
xoxoxo

I think my body has forgotten how to make babies ...

This is my only conclusion I have now around my fertility ... that my body has forgotten how to make babies.

I mean its been almost ten years since I had a baby/conceived. So, somewhere along the line my body must have forgotten how to make a baby.

I am so tired of this TTC hell. I'm at breaking point. I need help urgently.

Here I was experiencing all these 'pseudo' symptoms, being late, the fatigue, the tender breast, the darkening areolas, the twinges ... you name it ... I had it. And still my test is a BFN!!!!!!!

Two tests later, two negative tests later I started spotting and now I'm just waiting for the witch to make a grand entrance.

I'm starting to get scared of the fact that I might never have a baby again and what scares me more is what it would do to my marriage. I don't know if we will be strong enough to make it through and this scares me so much that I often find myself crying myself to sleep.

Randy, or anyone for that matter, doesn't know how I am feeling as I don't openly talk about my 'problems'. I'm just tired of feeling so useless and insecure.

I don't know what my next step might be towards getting a baby ... I really don't know!

31 months of trying is enough!!!!!

Starting over...

Well today is the day that I start from scratch with my diet. I decided I'm going to be very strict on myself and drink lots of water again.

I've been sucking at drinking water for the last 2 weeks. I was just drinking appletiser and I think it affected my kidneys or bladder. I drank citro-soda to 'flush out' my system and I'm feeling better already. I also decided to incorporate my eating plan and to make 'going to gym' part of my daily activities.

For the next four weeks I'm going to be very strict on myself as we are attending a wedding on the 31st and I just have to look good.

My eating plan for today is as follows:

B: 3 provitas with peanut butter and 1 cup of tea
S: LF yoghurt
L: roti with chicken fillet, lettuce, tomato and cheese
S: LF yoghurt
D: spaghetti and mince

Water: 1.5 litres

Exercise: 30 minutes (treadmill), 30 minutes (spinning)

With love
Kim
xoxoxo

OUR DIY HOME PROJECT (part 1)

Now you know what I get up to on weekends ... LOL

can you see the 2 different colours?

yes, its pink and grey ...

the grey wall with the peach painting

the pink wall ... thinking of getting silver frames with some picture on this wall


the grey wall ... we thinking of moving the TV unit to this side of the lounge

we will be taking out these cupboards to make the kitchen and lounge open plan ... but for now the yellow walls match the cupboards ...

cupboards will be put in against this wall

just wanted to show you how nice the yellow goes with white ... LOL

ok ... mom's bedroom ... we putting in a new curtain rail this weekend ...

Varney's bedroom and ceiling ... still thinking of a border????

Varney's bed ... I want to put up white wooden blocks spelling out his name on this wall ...

Ok, all that needs to be done is our bedroom and the bathroom and then I will start accesorising ...

PS: part 2 will follow soon ...

Kim

Just another chapter in my life ...

So, I decided to go back onto my pill ... WHAT A DISASTER that turned out to be ... I went onto the pill on CD1 and on CD15 AF came waltzing back into my life like the super b!@tch she is ...

I decided to continue with the pill to see if the witch would go away and I can sadly say she is still here ... note today is CD25 so which means 6 days of AF, 9 days of her leaving and then 10 days of her again ...

So I called my doc who then said that the BCP is too strong for me and that I should stop drinking it and come and see him ... well I drank my last pill on Monday and I can see she is busy packing her bags to leave me ... hopefully ALONE ... LOL

Anyhow my friend has asked me to do a HPT cause she is convinced that I am preggies but I'm not ... so I'm skipping it ...

oh and then I am PISSED at my one friend who had an abortion and then she still has the audacity to say "I had to do what I had to do, I hope u not mad" ... NO, I'm not mad ... I'm FURIOUS ... how can she just decide a healthy unborn's fate ... someone that cannot even make decisions for themselves ... if u don't want a baby keep your legs closed ... I mean you have got 2 kids already and you know where babies come from!!!!!!!!!! OK, this was just me venting.

On a lighter note ... all seems to be going well, beside AF ... Randy is happy, my angel (Varney) is happy and healthy and everything just seems to be falling into place ...

Enjoy your day off tomorrow.

Kim
xoxoxo

Long time no post ...

Well I have to admit I have been VERY sluggish with updating my blog ... I have just been so busy ...

after my uncle's funeral I was booked off sick with flu and when I got back we were short staffed so been very hectic on my side ...

Besides, being back at work I have kicked my diet to the curb again and I feel so bad for doing that ... about 5% of me blames my Randy, 10% of me blames my flu and 20% of me blames myself ... but hey I still feel great ...

and I cant complain about the 5% cause right now I'm being treated like a queen ... getting flowers, and teddy's, and cakes, and romantic lunches and suppers ... so hey a girl really cant complain about that ...

to my fellow bloggers ... ASKIES for not following your blogs for the last 2 weeks ... I am definitely going to catch up tomorrow ...

speaking of tomorrow ... seeing that I was sick last week we only having our Spring braai tomorrow ... so nice of my boss to wait until I'm back at work and then having it ...

Ok, you probably want to hear what we have been up to so here goes ...

Randy: loving and still so handsome and sexy ... LOL ... ok still the King in my life and still spoiling me rotten ...
Varney: still so cute and growing at such a rapid pace ... oh BTW ... watch out on his blog as I update on his relationship with his dad ... seems like I'm losing my son ... he sleeps over at his dad's every weekend ... I'm so jealous, but part of me doesnt want to restrict him too much ... his rooom is nearly done so will post some pictures as well ...
Me: doing well ... still have a runny nose and irritating cough but still on 80kg's ... so happy that I didnt pick up ... oh ja and I'm on the pill for this month and next month ... but you probably saw on my ticker ...

Mom, grandma and aunt seems to be coming to terms with the loss of my uncle, I'm really glad all the prayers worked ...

Well until I write again ...

Cheerio and lots of love
Kim
xoxoxo