I want to thank You for what you have already done.
I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards.
I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better.
I'm not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me.
I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears.
I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves.
I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet.
I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job.
I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief.
I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed.
I am thanking you right now.
I am thanking you because I am alive.
I am thanking you because I made it through the days of difficulties.
I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.
I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.
I'm thanking you because FATHER, YOU haven't given up on me.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Happy Monday Update
Yip, it's Monday again. I hope all my fellow bloggers and friends got some rest this weekend? I know I did, even though our weekend was planned to be busy we ended up lazing around.
On Friday, we went home and parked the car and watched some movies, even though we were supposed to go to a friend. On Saturday, same thing, cleaned the house, watched movies and the soccer and a friend of ours came over and yesterday we were at home the whole day as well.
Boring, but rest well needed.
Well on my side my family is doing well ...
Devandre:
Well, he is a hand full, and I'm beginnig to think it might be cause he is an only child. He is very hyper and loves playing and making jokes, but yesterday he was super naughty. He got out of the bath and instead of using toilet paper, he took his towel and blew his nose and laughed at what he had done. I was so mad at him, that I gave him 3 spanks on his bottom and then he cried and ran to his room and got dressed. I let him cry himself out and then he came to me and apologised and then asked for rice crispies and milk. After I made some for him, he wanted me to watch TV with him and we lay on his bed watching TV and he fell asleep.
Randall:
Well he is doing great. Really growing and maturing and I love him more each day. He is still taking his multivitamin and his Fertile XY.
Me:
I'm doing well. Feel much better then I did last week. Although, I think my reproductive system is working overtime, might be due to the Fertile XX I'm taking. My ovaries are twinging and I've got a dull ache in my lower abdomen, but AF should be here by Thursday, so will see what's instore for us.
I just realised last night that we have been TTC for 24 months, 16 months seriously and 12 months post LAP. We have walked a long journey alone, we might need to seek some help.
Take care and enjoy the rest of the week
Kim
Friday, March 27, 2009
Mandy and Eve and the rest
10 Thing you didn't know about me:
1. I studied Financial Services Advice and dont use my certificate.
2. I have 2 brothers and 1 sister older then me.
3. I had my first drink when I was 13.
4. I had my first smoke when I was 14 and smoked for 2 months before leaving it.
5. I dont like clubbing, but I will go to News Cafe or Cappello's any day.
6. I'm not a reader and normally take a year to read one book. - hehehe
7. I love watching romantic movies and comedies.
8. I used to work as a barwoman for 2 months just after finishing school.
9. I'm very indecisive ... I will decide to do something and change my mind the whole time - I always think of the risks.
10. I LOVE to daydream or night dream ... just before falling asleep, I picture my future in my head.
1. I studied Financial Services Advice and dont use my certificate.
2. I have 2 brothers and 1 sister older then me.
3. I had my first drink when I was 13.
4. I had my first smoke when I was 14 and smoked for 2 months before leaving it.
5. I dont like clubbing, but I will go to News Cafe or Cappello's any day.
6. I'm not a reader and normally take a year to read one book. - hehehe
7. I love watching romantic movies and comedies.
8. I used to work as a barwoman for 2 months just after finishing school.
9. I'm very indecisive ... I will decide to do something and change my mind the whole time - I always think of the risks.
10. I LOVE to daydream or night dream ... just before falling asleep, I picture my future in my head.
To my sister
Dear sis,
Today is your day, let no one upset it.
You have been through alot and still you remain strong.
I look up to you and admire you for your strenght and determination.
I thank you for all the advice that you gave me over the years and that you are still giving me.
May God bless you abundantly and I hope you enjoy your day.
Happy Birthday!
Love,
Kim
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Time out
Have you ever felt as if you can just blow a whistle to get some time out? Or that you can crawl into a dark hole and just stay there until you feel like facing life again?
That is how I feel lately. As if I can just make magic and disappear. I know the world does not stand still for my problems, but I believe I have a right to feel this way?
Not that it's the nicest feeling in the world, but life just sucks right now... BIG TIME!
I am waiting impatiently for the light at the end of the tunnel, that's if Eskom doesn't switch it off again - LOL ... ok I made a joke for a change.
I was off sick for 2 days. Doctor tested my thyroid and it came back as clear, so at least I got some GREAT news this week!
Anyways OPM is rocking ... absolutely love it there and its growing ... it my other home ... just wish I could post weekends and at night ... I can log in with my phone, but can't post ...
That is how I feel lately. As if I can just make magic and disappear. I know the world does not stand still for my problems, but I believe I have a right to feel this way?
Not that it's the nicest feeling in the world, but life just sucks right now... BIG TIME!
I am waiting impatiently for the light at the end of the tunnel, that's if Eskom doesn't switch it off again - LOL ... ok I made a joke for a change.
I was off sick for 2 days. Doctor tested my thyroid and it came back as clear, so at least I got some GREAT news this week!
Anyways OPM is rocking ... absolutely love it there and its growing ... it my other home ... just wish I could post weekends and at night ... I can log in with my phone, but can't post ...
Friday, March 20, 2009
Thought and prayer for the weekend
Verse: James 1:12
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.
- Testings and trials are part of life.
- God blesses the people who patiently endure testing.
- To persevere means to stand firm and patiently endure.
- The tests and the trials will pass and God will reward you.
PRAYER: Lord, help me in the tests and trials that I am facing. Help me to persevere and pass the test. Amen.
Have a great weekend!
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.
- Testings and trials are part of life.
- God blesses the people who patiently endure testing.
- To persevere means to stand firm and patiently endure.
- The tests and the trials will pass and God will reward you.
PRAYER: Lord, help me in the tests and trials that I am facing. Help me to persevere and pass the test. Amen.
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
My thougths
As I lay on my bed last night, I try and relax my body. Moving down from my head, to my shoulders, to my hips, than my thighs, than my feet. Trying to relax each body part, each muscle slowly. Relaxing...
I try and try to think about the positives in my life. About all I have - my family, my friends, my son, my marriage, my job, my car, the roof over my head, the clothes on my back, the food on my table and everything I have achieved.
But still, still 'evil' thoughts start taking over my unrelaxed mind. Thoughts of envy, thoughts of hatred, thoughts of loneliness.
I think of my life and it somehow feels disorientated. Out of sync. I feel lonely and scared. Fear takes over my body as sweat rushes down. I fear not being able to conceive ever again. I fear losing my son or my husband. I fear losing my job. I fear it all.
I know I'm not supposed to feel this way, but I do. Worst of all I wanna really try my best and my all to conceive. I feel I have not tried everything in my grasp. I'm ovulating as we speak, but I'm so scared that I will not conceive this month. I so want to have a baby now. I'm more then ready. Somehow I think this will fulfill my life: to make my husband a father. Not that he isn't a father already. He is a great dad for D. But for him to have his own blood running through his child's veins. I sometimes pray to God, to let me conceive even if I loose the baby at least I know I can conceive again and then find answers to why I am loosing. But, the other times, when I share the heartache and tears of my friends that have lost I pray to God to not put me through the loss of a baby or child ever.
I remember one night when me and R were laying and speaking. Speaking about how long we knew each other yet it took us so long to realise we were meant to be together. And what he mentioned had me thinking. Why did we waste so much time? Why didnt we start dating way back then, then Varney would have been his biological son. But then I thought further if it were to happen back then we would have not been together today. So I'd rather have waited so long, until we were both matured to be in a marriage and to give Varney the best.
I'm so scared he will get to miss out on a chance of really becoming a daddy. Because everyone around me seems to be falling preggies, like my friend at work (we started trying together in Dec 07) fell preggies last year Nov, but had a miscarriage in Dec. Now 3 months down the line she is preggies again. I am happy for her, but a part of me wishes it was me instead.
Will I ever get a chance again?
I try and try to think about the positives in my life. About all I have - my family, my friends, my son, my marriage, my job, my car, the roof over my head, the clothes on my back, the food on my table and everything I have achieved.
But still, still 'evil' thoughts start taking over my unrelaxed mind. Thoughts of envy, thoughts of hatred, thoughts of loneliness.
I think of my life and it somehow feels disorientated. Out of sync. I feel lonely and scared. Fear takes over my body as sweat rushes down. I fear not being able to conceive ever again. I fear losing my son or my husband. I fear losing my job. I fear it all.
I know I'm not supposed to feel this way, but I do. Worst of all I wanna really try my best and my all to conceive. I feel I have not tried everything in my grasp. I'm ovulating as we speak, but I'm so scared that I will not conceive this month. I so want to have a baby now. I'm more then ready. Somehow I think this will fulfill my life: to make my husband a father. Not that he isn't a father already. He is a great dad for D. But for him to have his own blood running through his child's veins. I sometimes pray to God, to let me conceive even if I loose the baby at least I know I can conceive again and then find answers to why I am loosing. But, the other times, when I share the heartache and tears of my friends that have lost I pray to God to not put me through the loss of a baby or child ever.
I remember one night when me and R were laying and speaking. Speaking about how long we knew each other yet it took us so long to realise we were meant to be together. And what he mentioned had me thinking. Why did we waste so much time? Why didnt we start dating way back then, then Varney would have been his biological son. But then I thought further if it were to happen back then we would have not been together today. So I'd rather have waited so long, until we were both matured to be in a marriage and to give Varney the best.
I'm so scared he will get to miss out on a chance of really becoming a daddy. Because everyone around me seems to be falling preggies, like my friend at work (we started trying together in Dec 07) fell preggies last year Nov, but had a miscarriage in Dec. Now 3 months down the line she is preggies again. I am happy for her, but a part of me wishes it was me instead.
Will I ever get a chance again?
Monday, March 16, 2009
unanswered questions or me being ungrateful???????????
how do you let go, when u holding on so tight?
how do you relax, when things are just not going right?
will I ever get a chance to conceive the love of my life's child?
or will I see just one line after months of trying?
why do people conceive so easily when they are not trying? and when you ask them how it happened they'll be like 'it was an oops!'?
will I continue to break down and cry? to let my heart be ripped from my chest?
will I have the fear of my best friend conceiving before me?
Jealousy? Jealousy you may say ... NO, its not me being jealous its me wanting it so bad for myself? Why cant I put myself first for a change? Is it then so wrong to want the good things in life?
Is it so wrong to want to make my husband proud? It is too much to ask? For him to be able to see the blotch on the screen? To hear the first heartbeat at 8 weeks? To hold back my hair or rub my back when morning sickness hits me? To be nervous for the 13 weeks scan? to find out the sex at 18 weeks? To go on a baby shopping spree? To feel the first kick at 20 weeks? And to see his baby growing with every visit or scan? To finally go into labour as he runs around stressing and not being sure if he is excited or scared? And then to finally get to hold his baby for the first time as he looks into his/her eyes?
Now tell me how do you put on a smile in the morning and go out and face the world? Face all the questions everyone has around your bedroom life? Face the people staring at your tummy? How do you do it?
Every month I tell myself I am not going to think of making babies. But I'm lying to myself and to the world cause I do think of babies. I might not think out loud, but I want a baby so bad.
I cant take this anymore ... Seriously I cant ... If someone out there knows the secret of letting go, PLEASE let me know.
Daily thoughts and prayers
Verse: Psalm 94:18
When I said, my foot is slipping, Your mercy and loving-kindness, O Lord, held me up.
- God can hold you up no matter what you are facing.
- Sometimes it can feel like we are slipping.
- Things can feel as if they are slipping out of our grip.
- Even then God wants to hold you up!
Prayer: Lord, help me when I start slipping and hold me up I pray. Amen.
Verse: Psalm 42:8
Yet day-by-day the Lord also pours out His steadfast love upon me.
- God's love for you is firm and unchanging.
- Every day God wants to pour His love on you.
- Allow Him to pour His love on you.
- There is a fresh supply of God's love for you today!
Prayer: Lord, I receive Your love for me today. Thank You for Your loving-kindness towards me. Amen.
Verse: Ezekiel 34:16
'I will bind up that which was broken and I will strengthen the weak (sick)!' says the Lord God.
- God is able to restore any situation or circumstance.
- God is an expert at taking what is broken and healing it.
- God is able to give strength to those who are weak or sick.
- Give it to God - He can make something beautiful out of it!
Prayer: Lord, I give You the areas of my life that are broken and weak. I ask You to intervene and bring healing and strength. Amen.
Verse: Isaiah 25:4O
Lord, You are a refuge from the storm. You are a shelter from the rain and the heat to the needy in distress. You have been a stronghold!
- Storms are part of life.
- BUT you have a refuge, a shelter and a stronghold.
- If life is battering you, run to your refuge.
- God's arms are always open to receive you!
Prayer: Lord, truly You are my refuge in the storms of life. Be my refuge, my shelter and my stronghold, I pray. Amen.
Verse: Jeremiah 39:18
'For I will surely deliver you, because you have put your trust in Me.' says the Lord.
- Trusting God brings reward.
- Doing our own thing brings problems.
- Because you trust God, you can expect to be delivered.
- Yes, God wants to come through for you!
Prayer: Lord, when all around me are challenges and threats, I will trust in You, knowing that You will deliver me. Amen.
Verse: Nehemiah 2:20
I answered them by saying, 'The God of heaven will give us success. We His servants will start rebuilding.'
- God wants to give you success.
- God does not want to see us fail or fall.
- BUT sometimes we must take that initial step and start.
- As you start rebuilding, expect God to bless what you do and give you success.
Prayer: Lord, help me as I rebuild those areas of my life that need rebuilding and give me success I pray. Amen.
Verse: 1 Corinthians 6:20
For God has bought you with a great price. So use every part of your body to give glory back to God.
- God has paid a great price for each one of us.
- This should affect the way we live our lives.
- The way in which we live should bring glory to God.
- Let everything you do bring glory to God!
DECLARATION: I will live my life in such a way, so as to bring glory to God in all I do!
Verse: Deuteronomy 20:4
The Lord your God is the one who goes WITH YOU to fight FOR YOU against your enemies to give you victory.
- This is an incredible scripture. Think about it.
- God goes WITH YOU to fight FOR YOU!
- When facing a battle it is always more difficult alone.
- With God you are not alone and He will bring you to a place of victory!
PRAYER: Lord, how great it is to know that You go with me to fight for me! Give me the victory I pray. Amen.
When I said, my foot is slipping, Your mercy and loving-kindness, O Lord, held me up.
- God can hold you up no matter what you are facing.
- Sometimes it can feel like we are slipping.
- Things can feel as if they are slipping out of our grip.
- Even then God wants to hold you up!
Prayer: Lord, help me when I start slipping and hold me up I pray. Amen.
Verse: Psalm 42:8
Yet day-by-day the Lord also pours out His steadfast love upon me.
- God's love for you is firm and unchanging.
- Every day God wants to pour His love on you.
- Allow Him to pour His love on you.
- There is a fresh supply of God's love for you today!
Prayer: Lord, I receive Your love for me today. Thank You for Your loving-kindness towards me. Amen.
Verse: Ezekiel 34:16
'I will bind up that which was broken and I will strengthen the weak (sick)!' says the Lord God.
- God is able to restore any situation or circumstance.
- God is an expert at taking what is broken and healing it.
- God is able to give strength to those who are weak or sick.
- Give it to God - He can make something beautiful out of it!
Prayer: Lord, I give You the areas of my life that are broken and weak. I ask You to intervene and bring healing and strength. Amen.
Verse: Isaiah 25:4O
Lord, You are a refuge from the storm. You are a shelter from the rain and the heat to the needy in distress. You have been a stronghold!
- Storms are part of life.
- BUT you have a refuge, a shelter and a stronghold.
- If life is battering you, run to your refuge.
- God's arms are always open to receive you!
Prayer: Lord, truly You are my refuge in the storms of life. Be my refuge, my shelter and my stronghold, I pray. Amen.
Verse: Jeremiah 39:18
'For I will surely deliver you, because you have put your trust in Me.' says the Lord.
- Trusting God brings reward.
- Doing our own thing brings problems.
- Because you trust God, you can expect to be delivered.
- Yes, God wants to come through for you!
Prayer: Lord, when all around me are challenges and threats, I will trust in You, knowing that You will deliver me. Amen.
Verse: Nehemiah 2:20
I answered them by saying, 'The God of heaven will give us success. We His servants will start rebuilding.'
- God wants to give you success.
- God does not want to see us fail or fall.
- BUT sometimes we must take that initial step and start.
- As you start rebuilding, expect God to bless what you do and give you success.
Prayer: Lord, help me as I rebuild those areas of my life that need rebuilding and give me success I pray. Amen.
Verse: 1 Corinthians 6:20
For God has bought you with a great price. So use every part of your body to give glory back to God.
- God has paid a great price for each one of us.
- This should affect the way we live our lives.
- The way in which we live should bring glory to God.
- Let everything you do bring glory to God!
DECLARATION: I will live my life in such a way, so as to bring glory to God in all I do!
Verse: Deuteronomy 20:4
The Lord your God is the one who goes WITH YOU to fight FOR YOU against your enemies to give you victory.
- This is an incredible scripture. Think about it.
- God goes WITH YOU to fight FOR YOU!
- When facing a battle it is always more difficult alone.
- With God you are not alone and He will bring you to a place of victory!
PRAYER: Lord, how great it is to know that You go with me to fight for me! Give me the victory I pray. Amen.
What a weekend ...
We had the most horrible weekend this past weekend. We had a car accident.
An off-duty policeman drove into us on Saturday afternoon on our way home from the shops.
He hit the driver side and back passenger door. Our car got hurt really bad and luckily not one of us got hurt. Varney was not with us. Thank God!
The off-duty cop was drunk and apparently in a hurry. The state has to fix the car, but they take long to pay out. For now we will fix the car and then just claim back from the state.
I really hope this was the end to all our bad luck.
PS: please keep us in your prayers.
An off-duty policeman drove into us on Saturday afternoon on our way home from the shops.
He hit the driver side and back passenger door. Our car got hurt really bad and luckily not one of us got hurt. Varney was not with us. Thank God!
The off-duty cop was drunk and apparently in a hurry. The state has to fix the car, but they take long to pay out. For now we will fix the car and then just claim back from the state.
I really hope this was the end to all our bad luck.
PS: please keep us in your prayers.
Monday:
Friday, March 13, 2009
Life ...
Life is a pain ...
Life is unfair ....
Life is a bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is there so much pain and suffering in the world?
Why conceive only to lose?
My friend just disappeared from work yesterday and this morning she told me she had a miscarriage yesterday.
My friend from OPM is also stressed cause she went to the loo and saw blood.
Why is God doing this to them?
Life is unfair ....
Life is a bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is there so much pain and suffering in the world?
Why conceive only to lose?
My friend just disappeared from work yesterday and this morning she told me she had a miscarriage yesterday.
My friend from OPM is also stressed cause she went to the loo and saw blood.
Why is God doing this to them?
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Letter to my son
Dear Devandre
I am sitting here thinking about you. About the way you laugh when we play, about the way you get so mad when I tease you, about the way you look at me when you sick and the way you admire me for being your mother. About how you always grab Daddy from behind to give him a big hug or the way you always sneak up to tickle me or Daddy.
These are all thoughts that brings tears of joy and a smile to my face. You are a remarkable young boy and as I stare at your picture on my desk next to my PC, I am overwhelmed by how strong you are.
You have been through alot at a mere age of 8. Keeping me on my toes and taking your temperature every 10 minutes when you sick. Feeling sick myself and not being able to concentrate on anything. You've been in and out of hospital since your birth and still you rise. From the sickness, from the pain ... to glory and to fame.
You are my little man and for you I would do anything and everything in my power. You have brought so much joy to my life and you have made Daddy mature into the fine man that he is today. (Though he might not have noticed or might have, but didn't know what to say.)
Its a joy and a privilege having you in my life through the sickness and the health and I will not trade it for anything in the world.
Sometimes you can make me so mad at other times sad, but then I think of what a miracle you are and I am filled with peace and love.
I will always love you and you will always be my little man.
All my love
Mom
I am sitting here thinking about you. About the way you laugh when we play, about the way you get so mad when I tease you, about the way you look at me when you sick and the way you admire me for being your mother. About how you always grab Daddy from behind to give him a big hug or the way you always sneak up to tickle me or Daddy.
These are all thoughts that brings tears of joy and a smile to my face. You are a remarkable young boy and as I stare at your picture on my desk next to my PC, I am overwhelmed by how strong you are.
You have been through alot at a mere age of 8. Keeping me on my toes and taking your temperature every 10 minutes when you sick. Feeling sick myself and not being able to concentrate on anything. You've been in and out of hospital since your birth and still you rise. From the sickness, from the pain ... to glory and to fame.
You are my little man and for you I would do anything and everything in my power. You have brought so much joy to my life and you have made Daddy mature into the fine man that he is today. (Though he might not have noticed or might have, but didn't know what to say.)
Its a joy and a privilege having you in my life through the sickness and the health and I will not trade it for anything in the world.
Sometimes you can make me so mad at other times sad, but then I think of what a miracle you are and I am filled with peace and love.
I will always love you and you will always be my little man.
All my love
Mom
For my hubby ...
Ave Maria by Beyonce
She was lost in so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
There for the Grace of God go I
I found heaven on Earth
You were my last, my first
And then I hear this voice inside
Ave Maria
I've been alone
When I'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud
But I still go home knowing that I've got you
There's only us when the lights go down
You are my heaven on Earth
You are my hunger, my thirst
I always hear this voice inside
Singing Ave Maria
Sometimes love can come and pass you by
While you're busy making plans
Suddenly hits you and then you realize
It's out of your hands
Baby you got to understand
You are my heaven on earth
You are my last, my first
And then I hear this voice inside
Ave Maria
Ave Maria
Ave Maria
She was lost in so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
There for the Grace of God go I
I found heaven on Earth
You were my last, my first
And then I hear this voice inside
Ave Maria
I've been alone
When I'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud
But I still go home knowing that I've got you
There's only us when the lights go down
You are my heaven on Earth
You are my hunger, my thirst
I always hear this voice inside
Singing Ave Maria
Sometimes love can come and pass you by
While you're busy making plans
Suddenly hits you and then you realize
It's out of your hands
Baby you got to understand
You are my heaven on earth
You are my last, my first
And then I hear this voice inside
Ave Maria
Ave Maria
Ave Maria
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Update
Well I can happily say that my family is doing great. Except for the 'little' fights now and again everything seems to be ok.
We are looking for places to go on holiday, although it will only be in October with Randy's bday, we want to start planning now already. Especially with the economy looking so gloomy.
This will be our first family holiday and last night when I told Varney he turns and says to me "No, I don't wanna go. You can go on your own. I wanna live with mommy." (Mommy being my mother). Then I explained to him that our holiday is just for a weekend away and that seemed to make him eager to go. So we have decided on going to Koppisol and will be joined by our friends King and Tan and their daughter. So now it's off to planning for me.
So apart from all this hype in our lives there is the meningitis issue in JHB where 4 children have already passed on - RIP. Although I took Varney for a vaccination and trusting in God, I can't help but stress about this. I really hope and pray the government can be more considerate and do something about this. Some info on meningitis:
Signs and symptoms
Meningitis and septicaemia (blood poisoning) are not always easy to recognise, and symptoms can appear in any order. Some may not appear at all. In the early stages, the signs and symptoms can be similar to many other more common illnesses, for example flu.Trust your instincts. If you suspect meningitis or septicaemia, get medical help immediately.Early symptoms can include fever, headache, nausea (feeling sick), vomiting (being sick), and muscle pain, with cold hands and feet.A rash that does not fade under pressure (see ‘The Glass Test’) is a sign of meningococcal septicaemia. This rash may begin as a few small spots anywhere on the body and can spread quickly to look like fresh bruises.
The spots or rash are caused by blood leaking into the tissues under the skin. They are more difficult to see on darker skin, so look on paler areas of the skin and under the eyelids. The spots or rash may fade at first, so keep checking. However, if someone is ill or is obviously getting worse, do not wait for spots or a rash to appear. They may appear late or may not appear at all.
The Glass Test
Spots or a rash will still be seen when the side of a clear drinking glass is pressed firmly against the skin
This past weekend me and Varney started scrapbooking and it was so much fun. We're not done yet, but as soon as we will be I will post some pictures. Scrapbooking really helps one relax.
Apart from that I am happy to announce that I have lost 1kg - Hooray!!!!!
The diet/lifestyle change is still going okay. I have started drinking multivitamins and have gotten Randy to drink some too.
All in all me and my family are doing great.
We are looking for places to go on holiday, although it will only be in October with Randy's bday, we want to start planning now already. Especially with the economy looking so gloomy.
This will be our first family holiday and last night when I told Varney he turns and says to me "No, I don't wanna go. You can go on your own. I wanna live with mommy." (Mommy being my mother). Then I explained to him that our holiday is just for a weekend away and that seemed to make him eager to go. So we have decided on going to Koppisol and will be joined by our friends King and Tan and their daughter. So now it's off to planning for me.
So apart from all this hype in our lives there is the meningitis issue in JHB where 4 children have already passed on - RIP. Although I took Varney for a vaccination and trusting in God, I can't help but stress about this. I really hope and pray the government can be more considerate and do something about this. Some info on meningitis:
Signs and symptoms
Meningitis and septicaemia (blood poisoning) are not always easy to recognise, and symptoms can appear in any order. Some may not appear at all. In the early stages, the signs and symptoms can be similar to many other more common illnesses, for example flu.Trust your instincts. If you suspect meningitis or septicaemia, get medical help immediately.Early symptoms can include fever, headache, nausea (feeling sick), vomiting (being sick), and muscle pain, with cold hands and feet.A rash that does not fade under pressure (see ‘The Glass Test’) is a sign of meningococcal septicaemia. This rash may begin as a few small spots anywhere on the body and can spread quickly to look like fresh bruises.
The spots or rash are caused by blood leaking into the tissues under the skin. They are more difficult to see on darker skin, so look on paler areas of the skin and under the eyelids. The spots or rash may fade at first, so keep checking. However, if someone is ill or is obviously getting worse, do not wait for spots or a rash to appear. They may appear late or may not appear at all.
The Glass Test
Spots or a rash will still be seen when the side of a clear drinking glass is pressed firmly against the skin
This past weekend me and Varney started scrapbooking and it was so much fun. We're not done yet, but as soon as we will be I will post some pictures. Scrapbooking really helps one relax.
Apart from that I am happy to announce that I have lost 1kg - Hooray!!!!!
The diet/lifestyle change is still going okay. I have started drinking multivitamins and have gotten Randy to drink some too.
All in all me and my family are doing great.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
My handbook for 2009
These are lovely words to live by!
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Daily thoughts and prayers
Verse: Romans 12:2
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed (changed) by the renewal of your mind, so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God [in His sight for you].
- The world places so much pressure on us.
- The temptation is to conform to its pressures.
- God's word tells us that we should allow Him to transform us.
- We can either believe what the world tells us or what God says.
- I choose to believe God and His word.
Prayer: Lord, forgive me for following the patterns and pressures of this world. I choose to be transformed and to believe You. Amen.
Verse: Isaiah 45:22
Look to Me and be saved, all the ends of the earth! For I am God and there is no other.
- To what are you looking for your answers?
- No one and nothing else should be your answer.
- Look to God and don't be distracted.
- He has the power to save and is able to help.
Prayer: Lord, I look to You. You are God and there is no other. I will trust in and rely on You alone. Amen.
Verse: Psalm 24:7-9
Open up and let the King of Glory in. Who is this King of Glory? The Lord, strong and mighty, invincible in battle. Yes, open wide the gates and let the King of Glory in.
- We need to open up the gates of our lives and let God in.
- This is what we need to do.
- We need to open up our lives to God.
- And then let Him into our lives.
Prayer: Lord, I open up my life to You. Come into my life and be the Lord of my life. Amen.
Verse: 2 Corinthians 12:10
For when I am weak in human strength, then am I truly strong, able and powerful in divine strength.
- God can use anything and any situation.
- He can even use us when we feel weak and powerless.
- His strength makes us strong.
- For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Prayer: Lord, I need Your strength today! Come and empower me with Your divine strength. Amen.
Verse: 2 Corinthians 13:11
Be strengthened; be encouraged, consoled and comforted; live in peace, and the God of love and the Author of peace will be with you.
- Receive His strength today.
- Be encouraged and encourage yourself in the Lord.
- Receive His comfort and peace today.
- God is with you!
Prayer: Lord, I receive ALL that You have made available to me. I rejoice to know that You are with me. Amen.
Verse: Psalm 40:11 (The Message)
Now God, don't hold out on me, don't hold back Your passion. Your love and truth are all that keeps me together.
- God will never withhold His tender mercy for you.
- You can have hope in God's unfailing love and faithfulness.
- God wants to protect and preserve you.
- Don't come apart - Let Him keep and preserve you!
Prayer: Lord, thank You for Your love and mercy towards me. Thank You that You are holding me. Amen.
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed (changed) by the renewal of your mind, so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God [in His sight for you].
- The world places so much pressure on us.
- The temptation is to conform to its pressures.
- God's word tells us that we should allow Him to transform us.
- We can either believe what the world tells us or what God says.
- I choose to believe God and His word.
Prayer: Lord, forgive me for following the patterns and pressures of this world. I choose to be transformed and to believe You. Amen.
Verse: Isaiah 45:22
Look to Me and be saved, all the ends of the earth! For I am God and there is no other.
- To what are you looking for your answers?
- No one and nothing else should be your answer.
- Look to God and don't be distracted.
- He has the power to save and is able to help.
Prayer: Lord, I look to You. You are God and there is no other. I will trust in and rely on You alone. Amen.
Verse: Psalm 24:7-9
Open up and let the King of Glory in. Who is this King of Glory? The Lord, strong and mighty, invincible in battle. Yes, open wide the gates and let the King of Glory in.
- We need to open up the gates of our lives and let God in.
- This is what we need to do.
- We need to open up our lives to God.
- And then let Him into our lives.
Prayer: Lord, I open up my life to You. Come into my life and be the Lord of my life. Amen.
Verse: 2 Corinthians 12:10
For when I am weak in human strength, then am I truly strong, able and powerful in divine strength.
- God can use anything and any situation.
- He can even use us when we feel weak and powerless.
- His strength makes us strong.
- For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Prayer: Lord, I need Your strength today! Come and empower me with Your divine strength. Amen.
Verse: 2 Corinthians 13:11
Be strengthened; be encouraged, consoled and comforted; live in peace, and the God of love and the Author of peace will be with you.
- Receive His strength today.
- Be encouraged and encourage yourself in the Lord.
- Receive His comfort and peace today.
- God is with you!
Prayer: Lord, I receive ALL that You have made available to me. I rejoice to know that You are with me. Amen.
Verse: Psalm 40:11 (The Message)
Now God, don't hold out on me, don't hold back Your passion. Your love and truth are all that keeps me together.
- God will never withhold His tender mercy for you.
- You can have hope in God's unfailing love and faithfulness.
- God wants to protect and preserve you.
- Don't come apart - Let Him keep and preserve you!
Prayer: Lord, thank You for Your love and mercy towards me. Thank You that You are holding me. Amen.
Weird dream
Last night I had an absolutely horrible dream.
I dreamt that my hubby was cheating on me and had actually gotten the other girl preggies (I could see her belly, but not her face). I was devastated when I confronted him and he told me he doesn't love me anymore and was going to tell me when she gave birth.
I woke up immediately, sweating and looked over to him, while he was sound asleep.
This morning I asked him if he loves me and he said he always will. I did not tell him about my dream, cause I'm so scared he will think I'm insecure or something.
I really don't know what to make of this dream, but I pray to God it won't come true.
I dreamt that my hubby was cheating on me and had actually gotten the other girl preggies (I could see her belly, but not her face). I was devastated when I confronted him and he told me he doesn't love me anymore and was going to tell me when she gave birth.
I woke up immediately, sweating and looked over to him, while he was sound asleep.
This morning I asked him if he loves me and he said he always will. I did not tell him about my dream, cause I'm so scared he will think I'm insecure or something.
I really don't know what to make of this dream, but I pray to God it won't come true.
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