ZZZZZZzzzzzzz

I have been feeling so tired for the last week, by noon I cant even concentrate or keep my eyes open.

I think its got something to do with the fact that 1. I either go to bed to early ... (I normally get into bed by 9, but this past week I've been going to bed at 8 or 8.30pm, which is not so much earlier and I wake at 6) or 2. the fact that I haven't been going to gym this week.

My (.)(.) are also very EINA, especially when I lay on them. I don't think I will get a BFP this month and am not stressing too much about it, that is something I will start worrying about next year.

I cant wait for Christmas to come. I'm so in a hurry for it ... LOL and next week we will be having our year end function. We going bowling and then grabbing a bite at Spur.

Well, Varney is starting with his tantrum throwing so I will update in his blog.
Randy is still ok just stressing about his studies for next year.

And that is it ...

Long time no post ...

Well I have to admit I have been VERY sluggish with updating my blog ... I have just been so busy ...

after my uncle's funeral I was booked off sick with flu and when I got back we were short staffed so been very hectic on my side ...

Besides, being back at work I have kicked my diet to the curb again and I feel so bad for doing that ... about 5% of me blames my Randy, 10% of me blames my flu and 20% of me blames myself ... but hey I still feel great ...

and I cant complain about the 5% cause right now I'm being treated like a queen ... getting flowers, and teddy's, and cakes, and romantic lunches and suppers ... so hey a girl really cant complain about that ...

to my fellow bloggers ... ASKIES for not following your blogs for the last 2 weeks ... I am definitely going to catch up tomorrow ...

speaking of tomorrow ... seeing that I was sick last week we only having our Spring braai tomorrow ... so nice of my boss to wait until I'm back at work and then having it ...

Ok, you probably want to hear what we have been up to so here goes ...

Randy: loving and still so handsome and sexy ... LOL ... ok still the King in my life and still spoiling me rotten ...
Varney: still so cute and growing at such a rapid pace ... oh BTW ... watch out on his blog as I update on his relationship with his dad ... seems like I'm losing my son ... he sleeps over at his dad's every weekend ... I'm so jealous, but part of me doesnt want to restrict him too much ... his rooom is nearly done so will post some pictures as well ...
Me: doing well ... still have a runny nose and irritating cough but still on 80kg's ... so happy that I didnt pick up ... oh ja and I'm on the pill for this month and next month ... but you probably saw on my ticker ...

Mom, grandma and aunt seems to be coming to terms with the loss of my uncle, I'm really glad all the prayers worked ...

Well until I write again ...

Cheerio and lots of love
Kim
xoxoxo

Just a note ...

to update you all on the happenings in my life ...

This past weekend we lost my uncle (mom's brother). He was like a dad to us when mom and dad split, so all of us are taking it very hard, especially mom and grandma.

He lost his wife about 4 years ago and now it was his turn to go. It was so sudden, despite the fact that he was in hospital, but that was due to the fact that his leg was amputated on Thursday. He was still doing well on Friday when we went to visit him and he looked so handsome and at peace and he still made us laugh at his jokes and funny comments. He passed away on Saturday and it was horrible seeing my mom crying so much, that she couldn't even speak or breath properly.

Randall, is the best! He is so caring and so supportive during our time of grief. He is so concerned about mom and even took us out for the day on Sunday to take our minds off things.

We finally tiled the 2 bedrooms on Saturday, so it just our bedroom that needs to be tiled and then we have to paint and then we move to the bathroom. This DIY project of ours is so much fun and Varney is enjoying it himself.

He is also doing so much better and he was also in tears, but I think it was mainly because he saw my mom cry so much.

This coming weekend is the funeral, so I will most probably update after the funeral.

To all the special OPM angels:

THANKS FOR THE KIND WORDS AND PRAYERS. IT IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED.

Lots of love
Kim
xoxoxo

TGIF ... whoop whoop

Well today I feel better, although I have this headache. Nothing new on my side ....

anyways here is menu for today:

B: DF and a cup of tea

S: cup of soup

L: chicken and salad

S: Low GI popcorn

D: dunno ... but will be a healthy choice

Water: 2ltrs

I am going to really stick to my diet this weekend then next week I can have a break as it is my birthday and I'll eat what I want to ...

The gym called me yesterday, seems like I will start on Monday and they gonna give me a tour. Randy is going to get a backpack with goodies for referring me. I will have to go to the shops to buy me sportsbra's because I dont have any ... otherwise its gonna be a big problem ...

Tomorrow D's school has a parents day where we get to view to schoolbooks and chat to the teacher about his progress, etc. We are also going to get his report card and have decided that if he has improved we will take him out for the day to a movie and a bite to eat.

I'm also going to spend the afternoon with D so will take a picture of her preggy belly ... LOL

On Sunday we just going to chill and watch some movies ... we bought quite a few movies ... so it is something worth looking forward to ...

Anyways I hope everyone has a splendid weekend!!!!!!!!

Lotsa love

Kim

xoxoxo

Today

I feel so sad and despondent ... I don't know why ... and to top it off I lost a kg so I should really be very happy ...

I don't have much of a menu today:

B: 2 scrambled eggs, 1 slice cheese, cup of tea

S: DF

L: don't know yet ... didn't pack lunch

S: don't know

D: don't know ...

LND: vetkoek and mince

Water: 2ltrs

My motivation for today:

Infertility and obesity

Date updated: January 29, 2007

Hillary M. Wright, R.D., L.D.N

Content provided by Revolution Health Group

Almost every day, there are news updates on the intensifying obesity epidemic in the United States. Currently, about 65% of Americans are either overweight or obese — an increase of 25% over the last 30 years — and the numbers continue to climb.

Women with a body mass index greater than 25 are considered overweight, and those with a value above 30 are considered obese.Most people know that being overweight raises the risk of almost every major health problem, including cardiovascular disease, diabetes and some cancers. What hasn’t gotten as much attention is the fact that both obesity and being overweight can affect fertility as well.

Research has shown that a disproportionate number of women (about 40%) who seek infertility treatment are overweight or obese. A study involving more than 5,000 infertile women who were treated at an infertility clinic in Australia found that 23% of the subjects were considered overweight and 17%, obese. The results were published in the October 1995 issue of the journal Human Reproduction.Research also ties obesity to poorer outcomes in women who undergo in vitro fertilization (IVF).

For example, another study in the July 2005 issue of Human Reproduction tracked some 8,500 women who underwent IVF in the Netherlands and found that those who were overweight or obese had a significantly lower success rate of having a live birth as compared to normal-weight women. What’s the link?One common finding in obese women with fertility problems is a tendency towards abdominal obesity, or an “apple-shaped” body. Exactly how excess body fat affects fertility is not completely understood, but obesity is known to influence reproductive function in several ways:

* Obese women are more likely to menstruate irregularly or not at all. This is due to the presence of excess subcutaneous fat that produces large amounts of the estrogen hormone.
* Obese women are more likely to have problems with successful ovulation and a poorer response to fertility drugs.
* Obese women are at increased risk for miscarriage, both spontaneously and after infertility treatment.
* Obese women are also at higher risk of pregnancy-related complications such as gestational diabetes, hypertension and preeclampsia or toxemia, which poses a threat to both the mother and developing fetus.
* In addition, many obese infertile women suffer from a hormonal disorder called polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS).

PCOS is a major cause of infertility and is thought to affect 5% to 10% of women of reproductive age. Many researchers believe that the underlying problem in PCOS is that although insulin levels are normal, there is insulin resistance, a primary cause of type 2 diabetes. This is worsened by excess weight. It impacts fertility because the insulin resistance causes elevated circulating insulin levels that result in hormonal imbalances in the ovaries. These hormonal imbalances can then interrupt the normal cycle of ovulation and make it difficult to conceive.

Maintaining normal reproductive function requires a complex balance of sex hormones. Being overweight can upset this balance — with or without PCOS — and contribute to infertility in several ways:

* Excess abdominal fat can increase production of androgens, which are male sex hormones that are normally present in small amounts in normal women. Their levels need to stay consistent for normal ovulation to occur. If androgen levels soar, ovulation may be disrupted and conception cannot occur
* Excess body fat can trigger imbalances of the hypothalamus and pituitary hormones in the brain that are needed for normal ovulation.
* Even without a full diagnosis of PCOS, an obese woman can still have insulin resistance that leads to increased levels of circulating insulin. With more insulin in circulation, the balance of sex hormones in the ovaries can be disrupted, interfering with the delicate reproductive hormonal balance needed to trigger ovulation and contributing to infertility.

Not just a female problem

According to a recent study from the National Institute of Environmental Health Sciences (NIEHS) that involved more than 5,500 couples, men who are overweight or obese are also more likely to experience infertility than normal-weight men regardless of their age. The results were published in the September 2006 issue of Epidemiology.

An earlier study published in the May-June 2006 issue of the Journal of Andrology — the first study of male weight and couple fertility — suggested that male obesity can also cause hormone imbalances and might even lower a man’s sperm quality. Although more research is needed, findings from the NIEHS, a part of the National Institutes of Health in Bethesda, Md., suggest that every 20-pound increase in a man’s weight increases his risk of infertility by roughly 10%.

Rate your weight

In the past, doctors used weight charts to help determine whether a person was within a healthy weight range. Now they use a new method called body mass index, or BMI.

BMI is calculated using your weight and height and can help doctors determine whether someone might be carrying enough excess fat to be considered a health risk

For adults older than 20, BMI results are interpreted using standardized categories that are the same for both men and women:

BMI Weight Status
Below 18.5 Underweight
18.5 - 24.9 Normal
25.0 - 29.9 Overweight
30.0 and above Obese

While BMI is considered a good assessment tool for most people, some healthy individuals (for example, professional athletes) may rate as overweight because they have excess muscle contributing to their weight.

If your BMI puts you in the overweight or obese category and you’re having difficulty conceiving, you may want to talk to your doctor about whether excess weight could be a factor.

Lose weight, improve your fertility

The good news is that even modest amounts of weight loss can have a positive effect on fertility. “Weight loss of as little as 10% to 15% will enhance a woman’s chances of conceiving by normalizing sex hormone levels,” says weight researcher and reproductive endocrinologist David Ryley, M.D., of Boston IVF in Massachusetts.

So, for instance, a woman who weighs 200 pounds can increase her chances of conception by losing 20 to 30 pounds.

An important, added weight-loss bonus, according to Ryley, is that “obstetric complications such as pregnancy-induced hypertension and gestational diabetes will be reduced.”

However, a word of caution: Women who are too thin also have trouble getting pregnant. So the best approach is to maintain a healthy weight (i.e., one that is appropriate for your height and lifestyle).

Take action

Losing weight permanently happens in different ways for different people. Still, according to the Brown Medical School-based National Weight Control Registry, a database that chronicles the habits of more than 5,000 “successful losers” who’ve lost at least 30 pounds and kept it off for at least a year, people who win the weight battle share some common habits:

* Most registry participants maintain a low-calorie, lower-fat diet by adding fruits and vegetables, restricting certain foods, counting calories or using different types of portion control plans. Many keep food journals.
* Participants rarely skip breakfast, and most eat small meals 4 to 5 times per day.
* Seventy-five percent of participants weigh themselves at least weekly. If the needle on the scale creeps up, they fine-tune their eating and exercise habits in response.
* Most participants accumulate close to an hour of exercise every day, with walking being the most common form of activity.
* Here are some simple steps you can take to get your own weight loss rolling in the right direction:
* Move, move, move. Both long periods of exercise and short bouts of activity accumulated over the day are effective for weight loss.
* Spread out your food intake. Extreme hunger can lead to rapid overeating that leaves you feeling “stuffed.” Eating smaller meals throughout the day can help you avoid big pangs of starvation — and the associated binging.
* Aim for 5 or more servings of fruits and vegetables every day. They’ll help you feel full without loading you down with calories. Add a fruit to breakfast, munch on raw vegetables and fruits as snacks and include salads or cooked veggies with other meals.
* Watch your portions. Aim for a “healthy plate” that’s about half noncarbohydrate types of vegetables and fresh fruits, with the remaining half split between lean proteins (lean meat, skinless poultry, seafood, tofu or beans) and whole grains (brown rice, whole wheat pasta or whole-grain bread).
* Be selective about what you’re eating. Don’t just eat something because it’s there — make conscious food choices. If you shift into “eating overdrive” under pressure, talk to an expert about stress management strategies that don’t involve food.

Stay positive

The thought of trying to lose weight while enduring the stress of infertility may seem overwhelming, but don’t lose hope. Even small lifestyle changes that result in modest weight loss may be enough to help you conceive — and experience a healthier pregnancy.

After all, your desire to have a baby may be just the motivation you need to develop healthier habits!

Kim

xoxoxo

Motivation

Do u sometimes feel that you are alone in this race called dieting?

Do u feel like giving up?

Does it sometimes feel like you getting nowhere (weight-wise)?

Well girls, sometimes or most of the time I feel this way ... that is why I decided to post something motivational today ...

WEIGHT LOSS MOTIVATION


Motivation is one of the most important factors which determines how successful we are at what we do. It is the driving force that gives us the will to accomplish tasks and eventually succeed at reaching an ultimate goal. Motivation levels can vary each day depending on how we feel, or how we view certain experiences. For anyone to succeed at slimming motivation will be the most important part to work at, it will provide us with the determination to get up and exercise even if we don't feel up to it. Motivation also drives us to stick to the low fat selections and recipes required to keep our progress moving.
The strength of your motivation will determine how successful you are in your weight loss efforts as the more you progress and lose weight the more difficult it will be to lose more as the body is pushed past its natural set points. Many top conditioning coaching admit that its possible to gain amazing results when an individual's motivation is high, even if the training program is not "scientifically correct".

DEVELOPING WEIGHT LOSS MOTIVATION

Most dieters will have some degree of motivation as they have already decided to take action. The problem for many is keeping the levels high enough to prevent any relapse.
Work through some of the following ideas and see if these can increase your desire for success!


LEARN TO ACCEPT SELF:

The most common reason people lose interest in exercise / dieting is due to unrealistic goals. Some see the images in the media or television and this coveys the message of how we are supposed to look, adverts enforce these images with false promises like "you too can have a body like this!", and we believe it! When the desired goals aren't reached we're made to believe we have failed.
We need to put these images into prospective and realise that most of the population just do not have the genetic predisposition to look like the models in the magazines, plus most images are now adjusted by computers to look better than they actually are.
Learn to love yourself for who you are, not who you wish to be. Acknowledge that you need to improve your health or weight, but believe that you will do what you can to be the best you can possibly be. The constant pressure and stress of trying to turn yourself into someone you physically cannot be will stop, and it'll be an enormous weight off the shoulders, you'll be surprised at how good it will make you feel and how this can help drive your motivation to make realistic improvements. When we understand and appreciate our bodies, we are able to work with them, not against them!


FOCUS ON POSITIVES NOT NEGATIVES:

Many of us have a tendency to look at our bad points, however once you start to accept yourself it will be easier to focus on the positive side more. To make it easier try writing a list of all the good things in what you've done or what you like about your physical self. Practice running these positives through your mind regularly, it may take time but its surprising what you can believe if it is said enough times - remember the past believe that you could look like the models if you obtain the right diet!

if you don't reach a goal when you want, just focus on the fact that you will get there in time
remember how far you've got not how far you need to go
if you miss a workout one day don't worry just go back with more vigour to improve
remind yourself that a worthwhile pay-off lies ahead in an improved you
remember the exercise is improving your health and fitness and will help increase longevity
remember exercise has many psychological benefits including renewed confidence and self esteem
any type of action always drives motivation
To boost motivation some dieters need to development of a different "mind set". For some people hypnotherapy has work really well to help gain more control over the mind!

SET GOALS:

Setting goals has the advantage of focusing on what you intend to achieve. A goal acts as a form of mental contract with yourself and your degree of motivation will drive you to complete that contract. If the goal is too hard to achieve it can affect your success. The subconscious mind does not distinguish between big or little, it only knows success or failure. If you set a goal of four training sessions each week but only complete three then the mind sees this as a failure. For this reason you must set realistic and easily reachable goals. When you attain each goal it gives momentum to increase the level of motivation further.

Try these tips:
* write down your goals
* set easy goals often so you create a habit of success in the mind
* set measurable goals - I will lose 1 pound each week. This gives you something to go for
* tell friends and family about your goals for motivational support
* make any routine fun and exciting to help maintain interest
* try new challenging goals to stop your normal routine from becoming a chore
* reward your success on reaching a goal
* think positively, replace thoughts like "I can't" with "I can and I will"
* don't set goals that are too much too soon

This is my menu for today:

B: 1cup WW pronutro, 1 cup LF milk, 3 provitas, 500ml water.

8 o' clock: 1 cup of tea

Snack: LF yoghurt and a banana

Lunch: grilled chicken breast with boiled veggies (carrot, baby marrow, potato, broccolli)

Snack: DF

Supper: don't know yet ...

Water: aiming for 2 litres ...

Hope you enjoyed today's post!!!

PS: weighing in tomorrow

Kim

xoxoxo

Diet schmiet ...

so I have started the diet fuel and I have to say it doesn't taste bad at all ... everyone was preparing me for this yucky disgusting taste ... LOL or maybe I'm just different ...

ok cool so my menu is as follows:

B: WW pronutro, LF milk, cup of tea and a naartjie
S: DF and a banana
L: don't know yet ... craving chicken and veggies
S: LF yoghurt and a naartjie
D: steamed fish, mixed veggies and a baked potato

take care ...

Kim
xoxoxo

I'm bad ...

ok before I have a mental argument with myself ...

I'm bad cause I cheated this weekend starting on Friday ... Randy wanted KFC so we bought KFC for supper ... everything was going exceptionally well and then I gave in .. just like that ...without even blinking ...

so I decided I really need to get my mind and body into shape and was considering using GI Lean products, but then I decided on Herbalife, but I eventually opted for USN dietfuel ...

I bought myself a 2kg bottle/tin and am going to start using it as of tomorrow ... 'if at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off and try again" and its exactly what I'm going to do ...

Randy bought me a track pants and a running shoe so I might just join the gym sooner rather than later ... watch this space ...

Kim
xoxoxo

Before I forget

I have been so consumed with work today, its not even funny ... I have my own work to do, I'm standing in for this dude that is on leave and then my manager still has the nerve to email me his work?

Anyhow, complaining wont help now would it ...

I weighed in this morning and I am 500g down ... YAY ... it sounds little, but look at it this way ... 500g is as big a brick of butter ... so it is actually alot ... yesterday was O day, but I was too tired to BD, besides its so cold ... LOL

OK my menu today has been kinda banged up, that is because I was so hard at work this morning:

Breakfast @ 10am:
1 egg
2 rashers bacon
mushrooms
grilled tomato
2 slices wholewheat toast
1 cup of tea

Snack @ 12pm:
2 slices watermelon
2 slices pineapple
500ml water

Skipping lunch ... still feel okayish

Snack @ 3 pm:
grapes
100ml lf yogurt
500ml water

Dinner:
Don't know but Randy mentioned something of tuna salad and potato wedges ...

Water unlimited ...

Mwah ...

Kim
xoxoxo

Craving ...

cheese & onion samoosas ... mmm ... :-(

I CAN DO THIS!!!
I CAN STICK TO MY DIET!!!!

Ok ... my menu before I change my mind ... LOL ...

Breakfast:
1 cup of oats
1/2 cup low fat milk
2 sugars
1 glass of water
1 cup of tea

Snack:
apple & naartjie
500ml water

Lunch:
1 avo
provitas
1 cup of tea

Snack:
low fat yoghurt
special K bar
500ml water

Dinner:
dont know yet ...

Tomorrow is D-Day!!!

Kim
xoxoxo

I am ..

• actually getting the hang of this lifestyle change ...
• loving the new me
• enjoying my food
• not a coffeeholic anymore
• drinking more tea
• still trying to increase my water intake
• joining the gym in August ...

I am so proud of myself and cant wait to see how much I weigh on Thursday when I weigh again ...

ok so last night I had only half of my homemade twister/chicken wrap

My menu (Randy is joining in today)

B: 1 cup Allbran flakes and 1 cup lf milk 1 cup tea

S: 1 lf yoghurt

L: 1 homemade chicken wrap/twister

S: 1 naartjie and a handful of peanuts

D: homemade veggie soup with 2 rye bread (Varney is sick and requested soup)

Other: 1lt water/1 energade

Enjoy your day ...

Mwah

Kim

xoxoxoxo

What a weekend ...

Well, on Saturday we had a funeral ... my mother's sister-in-law ... and after the funeral the family got together at my grandma's house ... we organising a family reunion ... funny how we always do that whenever we had a funeral in the family ... anyhow ... diet-wise all went well on Saturday ... stuck to it, but yesterday is a whole different story ...

back to Saturday, my brother got a call while we were at my granny's to say his GF was in a car accident ... we then had to rush to the scene to check what went on ... luckily nobody got hurt seriously ... she just hurt her leg ... so we went to the police station to report it and then had to wait for them to come to the scene ... poor service I tell u ... and then we took her to the hospital ... we then went home at 7.30pm ... and went straight to bed ...

yesterday morning we got news that Randy's cousin passed on in a car accident on Saturday night ... so we attending another funeral this weekend ... Randy is taking it so hard and shutting me out ... I feel so useless as a wife to him ...

OK here is my menu for today (Randy not on my plan today):

Breakfast:
1 cup wholewheat pronutro
1 cup low fat milk
1 cup black coffee

Snack:
low fat yogurt
peanuts

Lunch:
Fish, baked potato and green salad

Snack:
100g dried fruit
apple

Dinner:
Home-made twister ...

other:
1lt water
rooibos tea

PS: please pray for us during this tough time ...

PPS: thanks Marthie for the tips ... mwah

Kim
xoxoxoxo

Diet day 4

I have the worst migraine ever!!! I had this headache since Tuesday and it turned into this horrible migraine. Last night I couldn't even eat and Randy had to force me to take 3 provitas and a glass of milk just so I could drink headache tabs.

I took a warm bath and got into bed at 7pm.

I'm still not feeling well enough to eat so my menu consists of a little ... Randy opted for fast foods ... I weighed myself this morning and weigh 81kg's ... how I lost the 3 kg's in such a short time ... no idea ... think my scale is broken ...

Breakfast:
Two slices of toast
bacon
mushrooms
1 cup black coffee

Snack:
muesli and yogurt

Lunch:
Fruit salad

Snack:
apple

Supper:

maybe provitas ...

1lt water ...

Thanks girls for all the encouragement ... much appreciated!!!

All that Jazz!!!

SO, Saturday came and went and I got up over-excited, although my body was not in a mood to go nowhere, and got ready for the reunion. Friday night Randy got me some medicine from the pharmacy (thanks love, mwah!) and I took a good dose of pills and syrups and medlemon and went to bed.

Slept like a baby ... although my nose and ears were blocked ... OK, back to Saturday ...

So I got up, Randy washed the car while I got ready. Varney was lazing around from the one couch to the other, watching movies ... (My gosh, my boy is so big, that he doesn't even care what his mom is up to) ...

I went outside and it was so darn cold and Randy said I should get myself a scarf for my throat. My voice was so hoarse and my mom was teasing me saying that I sound like a Vuvuzela ... LOL ...

Anyhoo, off we went in search of a scarf and we got one after going into 3 shops. So I wrapped the thing around my neck (me is not a scarf person) and I went to drop off Randy at his friend's mom's bday party and went to pick up my school friends ...

To my disappointment Gold Reef City had a power outage and was closed for the day ... my heart was so sore, maybe I was looking out for the day too much ... so we decided to head home ... on our way we decided to rather go to News Cafe ... only 5 of us agreed ... so we went to grab a meal and a drink and then I went home ...

I still had to go to my friend's braai and was only there for 10 minutes ... sorry Taya!!!

Well Sunday I slept the WHOLE day, cause I was really feeling down in the dumps ... and Monday morning when I got up for work Randy refused to take me to work and rather took me to the doctor ... Myself and Randy were booked off from work for 3 days and today I feel much better ... still getting cold and my throat and ears are still sore ...

Varney was very happy that we were at home and as usual got his way with his 'I want' ... LOL

My friend emailed me this morning cause she got her BFP ... for now I cant disclose who it is as she wants to go for bloods first ... Dear Friend ... God is Great ... I hope this bean or beanS stick .... thinking of you .... mwah

ME!

Today's post is all about ME!!!! An update actually ...

Ok lets start (emotions and all that jazz this week):

Excitement
I am very excited for this coming weekend, just 2 more sleeps, then the big day ... our class REUNION!!!! Whoop whoop!!!!

Funny
LOL, I called out this woman whose name is Queenky and actually called Kinky and all the males on our floor LOL at me and said "Kim please leave your bedroom thoughts at home."

Anger
I was angry at DH the other night who took 2 hours to hire 4 movies and ended up having a dop with a friend ... MEN cant live with them, cant kill them ...

Love
Everyday I am dumbstruck at how much love I have ... for EVERYONE ... at first I used to be low on inclusion but since going for me LEAP course I'm climbing up on inclusion ...

Fertility
Well, as you know I'm seeing a homeopath/midwife and she is helping me get my cycles on track and my womb stronger ... well she mentioned that I will fall preggies in Nov 09, so I'm kinda looking forward to and I can say my mind is at peace with this info ...

POA
Seeing homeopath, taking pregnavit and probiflora cause I think I might have a case of Candida so better safe then sorry ...

That is it for now ...

With love
Kim
xoxoxo

Woohoo

I'm so excited ... just 5 more sleeps then its OUR reunion ...

I can't wait any longer ... to see all my old school mates and catch up ... from the emails that have been going up and down it seems like most of us are married.

I really cant wait and promise to take LOTS of pictures so that I can show you guys.

Just a quick update .... (I must really stop with all these 'quick' updates)

This weekend was fab, although I forgot it was Father's day and had to dash from shop-to-shop on Saturday trying to find Randy the PERFECT gift. Varney had made him two cards so we were actually just looking for a gift, BUT could not find one.

So when we got home I asked him what he would like as we had no gift for him and he said he wants a bottle of Hennessey (sp) which me and Varney bought and wrapped for him - LOL, I know he already knew what his gift was going to be.

Needless to say we spent the day indoors. Randy had a stomach bug and didn't even want to eat, but when I took his favourite dessert from the fridge he could not resist.

Happy Monday Folks!!!!

I'm back ...

from training and VERY thankful that I went on it ... the course I went on was an eye opener and really made me think ...

I learned so much and never in my life cried so much ... it was a leadership course but more on being the leader of your life ... there were so many underlying events that I was bottling up and hid away from people, but this course made me open up and deal with it ...

I have asked Randy to go on this course as well ... so that he can understand where I'm coming from ...

here are our updates:

Me:

Happy and chirpy ... LOL and I have finally taken the BIG step ... on hormone therapy ... will see how it goes

Randy:

Happy ... thinks I'm going crazy cause all of a sudden I'm so peaceful and happy ... LOL

Varney:

Happy ... he is at home cause the teachers decided to strike ... damn teachers ... but he is happy he still has a runny nose, but other than that he is doing just fine ... I have decided to dedicate a blog to him to journalise his life ... so feel free to pop over ...

The weekend

Well our weekend was great... although Varney is sick with flu.

So on Friday, I got home and spent some time with him. Nursing him and attending to his every need. We spent the night watching movies while he slept with his head on my thighs, as he did not want to fall asleep in his bedroom alone. When he finally slept I took him to his bed.

On Saturday morning we got up early and I phoned my friend (whose DH is a pharmacist) to get some medication for Varney. I then went to the pharmacy to get it and when I got home he was asleep again. So I finished cleaning (Mom was at a funeral) and Randy went shopping for veggies and then I got into bed again next to Varney.

What a mission it was to get him to eat so that I could give him medicine and when he didn't want food I gave him a yogi-sip and some juice, just so that he had something in his tummy. After his fever broke he was up and wanted to play playstation. Now because he is doing a bit bad at school, we don't actually want him concentrating on playstation too much. So DH's heart was breaking for his little man feeling so feint that he broke in and said yes he can play playstation.

We had a potjie planned for Saturday and wanted to cancel but decided to continue, so I was busy cleaning the veggies, while DH started the fire and Varney played playstation.

Saturday afternoon I decided to wash Varney so that he could put on clean PJ's and that I can rub his body with Puma Balm. He started crying and I could see that he was not feeling well at all. DH calmed him down and then carried him to the lounge so that he could lay on the couch and watch movies. Our guests arrived, but all my attention was with him so I was inside while everyone was laughing and enjoying each other's company outside.

Me and Varney went to bed at 8ish....

On Sunday we spent the day watching movies again and Varney looked much better, although I decided to keep him home today as it is so cold and I don't want his flu to get worse. Luckily my friend brought me some antibiotics for him.

OK that is our update for this past weekend ...

PS: join me tomorrow as I post one of my 'Blast from the Past'

We are ...

* all still alive and fine ..
* Randy is still going to gym regularly ...
* I am still contemplating going with him ...
* Varney's reading has improved drastically and yes he is no longer in an Afrikaans reader but in the book he should be
* His self-confidence I'd say is 6/10 which is good ...
* My car is still broken, but will be fixed this weekend ...
* The budgeting together thing is not going well at all ... I guess we should leave it as is and each of us should still stick to his/her responsibilities ..

Well that is it ... I think ...

Enjoy the day ...

Love
Kim

Update

Well once again I have to update all my readers and commentators ...

I have been on leave, as you know, and was supposed to be back on the 15 April, but decided to extend my leave, as I had a few issues to sort out. I came back yesterday, but was flooded with work and still am, but I decided to take a break so that I can update you all, my dear friends.

I had so much fun while on leave, even though we stayed at home. Here is what my diary looked like, just to give you an idea:

Monday, 6 April:

Did some rather overdue spring cleaning and was tired when night came. Also, made some pickled fish to store in the fridge until Good Friday.

Tuesday, 7 April:

Changed all the bedding on the beds and then we were off to the movies. Me and Varney went to watch Monsters VS Aliens. Quite a good movie and we were the only ones in the cinema so we had lotsa fun. We then went shopping afterwards and had something to eat.

Wednesday, 8 April:

we chilled at home and watched some movies, I coloured my hair to red and I washed and blow dried it and then we coloured some Easter colouring pages.

Thursday, 9 April:

I sorted out some few things for the weekend and bought some things we had run out of and then I just relaxed with a Mills & Boons novel, which I finished by Saturday.

Friday, 10 April (Good Friday):

We spent some time with family and had some wonderful fish and mushroom bake.

Saturday, 11 April:

We had a few friends over and just enjoyed each others company.

Sunday, 12 April:

Easter egg hunt for Varney and off to hire some more movies. Did not feel like doing much and felt for no visitors even though we had some uninvited guests, who probably got the drift that we did not want any visitors as they left within 1/2 hour.

Monday, 13 April:

Movies, movies, Easter eggs, movies, Easter eggs.

Tuesday, 14 April:

Getting Varney ready for school, cutting his hair, making sure everything is in his school bag, checking his school clothes, etc.

Wednesday, 15 April - 17 April:

Had a few things to attend to.

Well that's my diary in a nutshell and here is an update on us ...

Varney:

Not coping at school with his reading and numeracy. We have decided that we going to make much more effort on this matter starting with us drawing up a checklist for him and then he has to read 2 pages of his storybook and then we got him some story books and maths books and I am thinking of getting him Bio-Strath. Other then that he is a happy chappy. Schoolwork was not an issue last year or the year before and I'm trying to put a finger on what changed this year. Guess it has something to do with the bullies or the fact that he plays too much play station even though he is limited to weekends only and this has been taken away from him.

Randy:

Well, I thought my husband was coping with the emotions of TTC, after all it was him that wanted us to try again so badly, hence me buying us the Fertile XX and XY. But, when my friend called him last week to tell me that she is pregnant again, with baby no. 3, unplanned, I guess he just couldn't handle it. Well I guess that and 24 months of TTC is enough for him too handle and men cant deal with heartache as much as women can.... which boils down to ...

... Me:

I am in my last official 2WW and if nothing happens this month, we throwing in the towel. I have decided that it wont be fair if I want to keep on trying and DH is just not in the mood to. So we had a talk last night, after he mailed me to tell me how he feels, and we have decided to rather just enjoy each other and have stress-free nookie, rather than timed cycles and having to tell DH "not tonight, cause we had sex last night and we should only have sex every second day". So , maybe and this is a BIG maybe we will try next year again, that is if we feel up to it. But for now, we happy with just having Varney and we taking it one day at a time and for the first time in months I feel stress-free and content with our decision.

After our talk the Fertile XX and XY saw the bottom of the bin and the prenatal vitamins I will give to my friend tonight, when I go to visit her.

Well, I guess that is the end to our TTC journey and an update of my family and my leave.

Until we write again ...

Kim xoxoxo