ZZZZZZzzzzzzz

I have been feeling so tired for the last week, by noon I cant even concentrate or keep my eyes open.

I think its got something to do with the fact that 1. I either go to bed to early ... (I normally get into bed by 9, but this past week I've been going to bed at 8 or 8.30pm, which is not so much earlier and I wake at 6) or 2. the fact that I haven't been going to gym this week.

My (.)(.) are also very EINA, especially when I lay on them. I don't think I will get a BFP this month and am not stressing too much about it, that is something I will start worrying about next year.

I cant wait for Christmas to come. I'm so in a hurry for it ... LOL and next week we will be having our year end function. We going bowling and then grabbing a bite at Spur.

Well, Varney is starting with his tantrum throwing so I will update in his blog.
Randy is still ok just stressing about his studies for next year.

And that is it ...

Finally its the weekend babe!!!

Well another week has gone by, which means we getting closer to Christmas.

I attended a workshop, on the job I do, yesterday and today and I am kapoet after all the input we had to give ...

I'm so happy its finally weekend, although its going to be a busy one ... they all have been for the last couple of months. Tomorrow I have to go shopping with my SIL and then get home and help Randy paint. So I'm hoping that Sunday will be nice and quiet.

Anyways, I think I'm in the 2WW - LOL, cause I had O pains on Wednesday evening ... my right ovary was throbbing and then yesterday I had ALOT of EWCM and off course we BD'ed ... I didn't wanna tell Randy that it might be O taking place, cause I just felt that I might be adding pressure ... hehehe ...

So maybe I will update with a BFP soon ...

PS: my ticker on OPM says I am still going to O, so will continue BD every 2nd day ...

Enjoy your weekend and keep it safe!!!

Kim

Blogland

I have noticed that blogland has been very busy lately ... I have been reading some of my fellow bloggers blogs, but have not been able to comment on the posts ...

Lately work has been so busy ... we heading towards the silly season ... which means our ATM's will be busy until the 24th Dec and then again on 31 Dec and then everyone is BROKE and the ATM's quiet down again ...

Christmas is just around the corner ... just 7w3d to go until Christmas ... and truthfully I haven't even bought a single gift and am stressing my a$$ off here ... I know now isnt the time to think of gifts as everybody is cash strapped, but at least gifts for the special people in my life ...

Our 2nd anniversary is also coming up and we decided we not going to make a fuss about it ... we just going out for a romantic evening, but we are NOT buying gifts for each other.

I am making progress on my diet having fallen off the wagon and am back at 81kg's and so proud, but what I'm even more proud is I have eaten a choccie in 3 weeks and last night when I was offered I declined. YAY to me!!!!!!!

Varney has developed a phobia, if I can call it that, for his dad. I dont know why but it has been a month since he has gone to his dad and it makes me feel bad, cause it probably looks like I'm keeping him from them.

On the TTC front, we are just going with the flow and leaving it up to God. If it happens we will be happy, if not we will try some day again. Reason, Randy is going to study as of next year and I'm thinking of doing a mosaic course. My manager wants me to do a study programme within the company, so I'm also considering it.

We have not done any more DIY work as we have been very busy, but will start this weekend again.

Well, I think this is it ... will update again ...

lots of huggies and lovies

Kim

Just a note ...

to update you all on the happenings in my life ...

This past weekend we lost my uncle (mom's brother). He was like a dad to us when mom and dad split, so all of us are taking it very hard, especially mom and grandma.

He lost his wife about 4 years ago and now it was his turn to go. It was so sudden, despite the fact that he was in hospital, but that was due to the fact that his leg was amputated on Thursday. He was still doing well on Friday when we went to visit him and he looked so handsome and at peace and he still made us laugh at his jokes and funny comments. He passed away on Saturday and it was horrible seeing my mom crying so much, that she couldn't even speak or breath properly.

Randall, is the best! He is so caring and so supportive during our time of grief. He is so concerned about mom and even took us out for the day on Sunday to take our minds off things.

We finally tiled the 2 bedrooms on Saturday, so it just our bedroom that needs to be tiled and then we have to paint and then we move to the bathroom. This DIY project of ours is so much fun and Varney is enjoying it himself.

He is also doing so much better and he was also in tears, but I think it was mainly because he saw my mom cry so much.

This coming weekend is the funeral, so I will most probably update after the funeral.

To all the special OPM angels:

THANKS FOR THE KIND WORDS AND PRAYERS. IT IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED.

Lots of love
Kim
xoxoxo

This weekend

is gonna be HUGE fun ...

Tonight we going to be home and play board games the whole night ...
Tomorrow it is down to painting again and if there is time, to go look for the wall stickers
Sunday we going to church and then the afternoon we going out for ice-cream ...

I'm going to be taking pictures of our 'diy' project ...

I went to look for wall stickers at Discount Cash and Carry, but unfortunately they dont have ...

Uhm, what else ... *think, think, think* oh ja, I'm definitely doing my Hip Hop Abs this weekend and will rest on Sunday and uhm ... sjoe I cant remember ... old age I tell ya

Anyways, I hope each and everyone enjoy your weekend with your families ...

Until Monday ...

Mwah

TGIF ... whoop whoop

Well today I feel better, although I have this headache. Nothing new on my side ....

anyways here is menu for today:

B: DF and a cup of tea

S: cup of soup

L: chicken and salad

S: Low GI popcorn

D: dunno ... but will be a healthy choice

Water: 2ltrs

I am going to really stick to my diet this weekend then next week I can have a break as it is my birthday and I'll eat what I want to ...

The gym called me yesterday, seems like I will start on Monday and they gonna give me a tour. Randy is going to get a backpack with goodies for referring me. I will have to go to the shops to buy me sportsbra's because I dont have any ... otherwise its gonna be a big problem ...

Tomorrow D's school has a parents day where we get to view to schoolbooks and chat to the teacher about his progress, etc. We are also going to get his report card and have decided that if he has improved we will take him out for the day to a movie and a bite to eat.

I'm also going to spend the afternoon with D so will take a picture of her preggy belly ... LOL

On Sunday we just going to chill and watch some movies ... we bought quite a few movies ... so it is something worth looking forward to ...

Anyways I hope everyone has a splendid weekend!!!!!!!!

Lotsa love

Kim

xoxoxo

I'm bad ...

ok before I have a mental argument with myself ...

I'm bad cause I cheated this weekend starting on Friday ... Randy wanted KFC so we bought KFC for supper ... everything was going exceptionally well and then I gave in .. just like that ...without even blinking ...

so I decided I really need to get my mind and body into shape and was considering using GI Lean products, but then I decided on Herbalife, but I eventually opted for USN dietfuel ...

I bought myself a 2kg bottle/tin and am going to start using it as of tomorrow ... 'if at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off and try again" and its exactly what I'm going to do ...

Randy bought me a track pants and a running shoe so I might just join the gym sooner rather than later ... watch this space ...

Kim
xoxoxo

Before I forget

I have been so consumed with work today, its not even funny ... I have my own work to do, I'm standing in for this dude that is on leave and then my manager still has the nerve to email me his work?

Anyhow, complaining wont help now would it ...

I weighed in this morning and I am 500g down ... YAY ... it sounds little, but look at it this way ... 500g is as big a brick of butter ... so it is actually alot ... yesterday was O day, but I was too tired to BD, besides its so cold ... LOL

OK my menu today has been kinda banged up, that is because I was so hard at work this morning:

Breakfast @ 10am:
1 egg
2 rashers bacon
mushrooms
grilled tomato
2 slices wholewheat toast
1 cup of tea

Snack @ 12pm:
2 slices watermelon
2 slices pineapple
500ml water

Skipping lunch ... still feel okayish

Snack @ 3 pm:
grapes
100ml lf yogurt
500ml water

Dinner:
Don't know but Randy mentioned something of tuna salad and potato wedges ...

Water unlimited ...

Mwah ...

Kim
xoxoxo

I am ..

• actually getting the hang of this lifestyle change ...
• loving the new me
• enjoying my food
• not a coffeeholic anymore
• drinking more tea
• still trying to increase my water intake
• joining the gym in August ...

I am so proud of myself and cant wait to see how much I weigh on Thursday when I weigh again ...

ok so last night I had only half of my homemade twister/chicken wrap

My menu (Randy is joining in today)

B: 1 cup Allbran flakes and 1 cup lf milk 1 cup tea

S: 1 lf yoghurt

L: 1 homemade chicken wrap/twister

S: 1 naartjie and a handful of peanuts

D: homemade veggie soup with 2 rye bread (Varney is sick and requested soup)

Other: 1lt water/1 energade

Enjoy your day ...

Mwah

Kim

xoxoxoxo

What a weekend ...

Well, on Saturday we had a funeral ... my mother's sister-in-law ... and after the funeral the family got together at my grandma's house ... we organising a family reunion ... funny how we always do that whenever we had a funeral in the family ... anyhow ... diet-wise all went well on Saturday ... stuck to it, but yesterday is a whole different story ...

back to Saturday, my brother got a call while we were at my granny's to say his GF was in a car accident ... we then had to rush to the scene to check what went on ... luckily nobody got hurt seriously ... she just hurt her leg ... so we went to the police station to report it and then had to wait for them to come to the scene ... poor service I tell u ... and then we took her to the hospital ... we then went home at 7.30pm ... and went straight to bed ...

yesterday morning we got news that Randy's cousin passed on in a car accident on Saturday night ... so we attending another funeral this weekend ... Randy is taking it so hard and shutting me out ... I feel so useless as a wife to him ...

OK here is my menu for today (Randy not on my plan today):

Breakfast:
1 cup wholewheat pronutro
1 cup low fat milk
1 cup black coffee

Snack:
low fat yogurt
peanuts

Lunch:
Fish, baked potato and green salad

Snack:
100g dried fruit
apple

Dinner:
Home-made twister ...

other:
1lt water
rooibos tea

PS: please pray for us during this tough time ...

PPS: thanks Marthie for the tips ... mwah

Kim
xoxoxoxo

here I go again

I'm thinking of joining the gym ... yip you heard me ... I want to join the gym and start exercising!!!

I have actually been thinking of this for a while now ... ever since Randy joined the gym actually ... but, I don't know where to start ...

the thing is this ... Randy has 4 coupons for a free visit of which I can only use 2 ... so I thought if I continue eating healthy and lose more maybe I can pay a visit in Aug???

I say Aug cause Randy is only going back to the gym in August ... ja, ja ... he hasn't been to the gym since May ... he complains about it being too cold ...

now I did some research as to some of the classes being offered, times, etc. ... and it got me all excited to start going to the gym ... I think what got me even more excited was the fact that they offer preggy classes ... whoop whoop ... which means if I do fall preggo, I wouldn't have to worry about not benefiting from my contract as I will still be able to use my membership ...

but now my mind is made up ... let's say 80% ... but the other 20% ... I'm thinking of the following ...

1. I don't have proper sneakers. What sneakers should I wear?
2. I don't have proper gym clothes. What clothes is appropriate?
3. I don't have a gym bag?
4. Where do I start?

Pls pls pls ... any advice will be appreciated ...

Kim

xoxoxo

Diet day 4

I have the worst migraine ever!!! I had this headache since Tuesday and it turned into this horrible migraine. Last night I couldn't even eat and Randy had to force me to take 3 provitas and a glass of milk just so I could drink headache tabs.

I took a warm bath and got into bed at 7pm.

I'm still not feeling well enough to eat so my menu consists of a little ... Randy opted for fast foods ... I weighed myself this morning and weigh 81kg's ... how I lost the 3 kg's in such a short time ... no idea ... think my scale is broken ...

Breakfast:
Two slices of toast
bacon
mushrooms
1 cup black coffee

Snack:
muesli and yogurt

Lunch:
Fruit salad

Snack:
apple

Supper:

maybe provitas ...

1lt water ...

Thanks girls for all the encouragement ... much appreciated!!!

Diet day 3

Oh what a night! ... at first I was so craving peanut butter and bread with a cup of coffee ... then I drank a glass of low fat milk ... then I craved biscuits ... oh my ... then hubby ate a cheese and polony sandwich ... * naughty naughty hubby*

I didn't sleep well at all ... I couldn't fall asleep and when I finally did I had to visit the loo ... the pillows were so hard ... my neck and back are so sore ... and I didn't even start exercising yet ... :-(

ok ... enough complaining here is today's menu

Breakfast:
1 cup All bran flakes
1 cup low fat milk
2 sugar
1 cup black rooibos tea

Snack:
low fat yogurt

Lunch:
grilled lamb chops with rice and stir fry veggies
1 glass fruit juice

Snack:
apple and pear ... again

Supper:
I don't know yet ... still craving bread so thinking of rye bread and tuna ...

Ps: I'm so bad when it comes to drinking water ... only drink 750ml ... if anyone could give advise ... please?

Back to the drawingboard ...

So, its back to the chalk board for me with my weight loss plan ...

Just though I might as well get in shape and healthy if I want to fall preggies again ... and YES the doctor even recommended I loose some weight first ...

At least this time around I have a partner joining me ... partner = Randy ... LOL the doctor told him to eat healthy as well ... and to drink less ... whoop whoop to Dr. E!!!

So we started on our healthy eating plan ... and hope to incorporate it into our lifestyle ...

We are also currently on supplements ...

Me: pregnavit, fertipil plus
Randy: spermaid ...

So here is our menu:

Breakfast
1 Bran muffin, black coffee

Snack
Low fat yogurt

Lunch
Mash, mixed veggies and fillet chicken

Snack
Provitas

Supper
Spaghetti bolognaise and green salad ...

Thanks Nix for your ideas ... mwah ...

anyhoo will update on how the diet is going as I currently weigh 84kg and need to weigh 54kg ... but am aiming for at least 60kg

wish me luck ...

Kim
xoxoxo

All that Jazz!!!

SO, Saturday came and went and I got up over-excited, although my body was not in a mood to go nowhere, and got ready for the reunion. Friday night Randy got me some medicine from the pharmacy (thanks love, mwah!) and I took a good dose of pills and syrups and medlemon and went to bed.

Slept like a baby ... although my nose and ears were blocked ... OK, back to Saturday ...

So I got up, Randy washed the car while I got ready. Varney was lazing around from the one couch to the other, watching movies ... (My gosh, my boy is so big, that he doesn't even care what his mom is up to) ...

I went outside and it was so darn cold and Randy said I should get myself a scarf for my throat. My voice was so hoarse and my mom was teasing me saying that I sound like a Vuvuzela ... LOL ...

Anyhoo, off we went in search of a scarf and we got one after going into 3 shops. So I wrapped the thing around my neck (me is not a scarf person) and I went to drop off Randy at his friend's mom's bday party and went to pick up my school friends ...

To my disappointment Gold Reef City had a power outage and was closed for the day ... my heart was so sore, maybe I was looking out for the day too much ... so we decided to head home ... on our way we decided to rather go to News Cafe ... only 5 of us agreed ... so we went to grab a meal and a drink and then I went home ...

I still had to go to my friend's braai and was only there for 10 minutes ... sorry Taya!!!

Well Sunday I slept the WHOLE day, cause I was really feeling down in the dumps ... and Monday morning when I got up for work Randy refused to take me to work and rather took me to the doctor ... Myself and Randy were booked off from work for 3 days and today I feel much better ... still getting cold and my throat and ears are still sore ...

Varney was very happy that we were at home and as usual got his way with his 'I want' ... LOL

My friend emailed me this morning cause she got her BFP ... for now I cant disclose who it is as she wants to go for bloods first ... Dear Friend ... God is Great ... I hope this bean or beanS stick .... thinking of you .... mwah

TGIF

I'm so HAPPY its Friday ... which means 1 more sleep til our reunion ...

I'm so looking forward to it even though I feel so CRAPPY!!!

I also have flu now thanks to my wonderful hubby who sweats so much at night and holds me so close ... ok I want him to still hold me close ... but not sweat me wet ... (huh? does that sound right?) Varney's cold seems to be clearing up (touch wood).

I hope I'm not setting myself up for DISAPPOINTMENT, cause I'm so excited for tomorrow. This weekend is gonna be great, reunion tomorrow morning, visiting D, my friends braai and Sunday chillax!!!!

New Moon is beginning to bore me a bit, must be because Edward left Bella. Ah well, will read it on Sunday, I might just finish the book.

Tonight, I'm gonna doctor myself ... med lemon and Stoney here I come!!!

Enjoy your weekend ...

Kim
xoxoxoxo

Insignificant

I feel so insignificant today. Am I really so caught up with myself that I don't care about Randy?

Let me tell you why I feel this way.

He is sick, since yesterday. After I keep on telling him that he must dress himself warm. He only wears a jersey, with no T-shirt or vest and a light summer jacket. Last night he had a terrible cough and I offered him medicine, which he refused. About a minute later he drank it. Then I gave him 2 panado's for his headache. He slept well and was sweating the whole night, which I think is good so that he can sweat the flu out.

This morning while we got ready, I made the bed, even though it was his turn, because he looked weak. I offered to rub his chest and back with Vicks and once again he refused. I told him to rather stay home and that I would let his manager know, he refused. I then offered to drive to work and still he refused.

I called him when I was settled at my desk and he told me he ate a yogurt but he feels more sick and weak and his body is so sore and that he vomited (TMI). I then asked him if I should take him home and he said no, because he has alot of work to do and cant complete it tomorrow because he is on training. I didn't know about the training?

His sister emailed me to tell me that I must tell him to phone his father when he leaves work early because they heard he was sick? Now, I'm thinking ... WHEN WOULD HE HAVE TOLD ME HE IS GONNA LEAVE EARLY AND PROBABLY GO AND SIT BY HIS DAD!!!!!!!!!

Am I over-reacting?

Kim
xoxoxo

Woohoo

I'm so excited ... just 5 more sleeps then its OUR reunion ...

I can't wait any longer ... to see all my old school mates and catch up ... from the emails that have been going up and down it seems like most of us are married.

I really cant wait and promise to take LOTS of pictures so that I can show you guys.

Just a quick update .... (I must really stop with all these 'quick' updates)

This weekend was fab, although I forgot it was Father's day and had to dash from shop-to-shop on Saturday trying to find Randy the PERFECT gift. Varney had made him two cards so we were actually just looking for a gift, BUT could not find one.

So when we got home I asked him what he would like as we had no gift for him and he said he wants a bottle of Hennessey (sp) which me and Varney bought and wrapped for him - LOL, I know he already knew what his gift was going to be.

Needless to say we spent the day indoors. Randy had a stomach bug and didn't even want to eat, but when I took his favourite dessert from the fridge he could not resist.

Happy Monday Folks!!!!

I'm back ...

from training and VERY thankful that I went on it ... the course I went on was an eye opener and really made me think ...

I learned so much and never in my life cried so much ... it was a leadership course but more on being the leader of your life ... there were so many underlying events that I was bottling up and hid away from people, but this course made me open up and deal with it ...

I have asked Randy to go on this course as well ... so that he can understand where I'm coming from ...

here are our updates:

Me:

Happy and chirpy ... LOL and I have finally taken the BIG step ... on hormone therapy ... will see how it goes

Randy:

Happy ... thinks I'm going crazy cause all of a sudden I'm so peaceful and happy ... LOL

Varney:

Happy ... he is at home cause the teachers decided to strike ... damn teachers ... but he is happy he still has a runny nose, but other than that he is doing just fine ... I have decided to dedicate a blog to him to journalise his life ... so feel free to pop over ...

The weekend

Well our weekend was great... although Varney is sick with flu.

So on Friday, I got home and spent some time with him. Nursing him and attending to his every need. We spent the night watching movies while he slept with his head on my thighs, as he did not want to fall asleep in his bedroom alone. When he finally slept I took him to his bed.

On Saturday morning we got up early and I phoned my friend (whose DH is a pharmacist) to get some medication for Varney. I then went to the pharmacy to get it and when I got home he was asleep again. So I finished cleaning (Mom was at a funeral) and Randy went shopping for veggies and then I got into bed again next to Varney.

What a mission it was to get him to eat so that I could give him medicine and when he didn't want food I gave him a yogi-sip and some juice, just so that he had something in his tummy. After his fever broke he was up and wanted to play playstation. Now because he is doing a bit bad at school, we don't actually want him concentrating on playstation too much. So DH's heart was breaking for his little man feeling so feint that he broke in and said yes he can play playstation.

We had a potjie planned for Saturday and wanted to cancel but decided to continue, so I was busy cleaning the veggies, while DH started the fire and Varney played playstation.

Saturday afternoon I decided to wash Varney so that he could put on clean PJ's and that I can rub his body with Puma Balm. He started crying and I could see that he was not feeling well at all. DH calmed him down and then carried him to the lounge so that he could lay on the couch and watch movies. Our guests arrived, but all my attention was with him so I was inside while everyone was laughing and enjoying each other's company outside.

Me and Varney went to bed at 8ish....

On Sunday we spent the day watching movies again and Varney looked much better, although I decided to keep him home today as it is so cold and I don't want his flu to get worse. Luckily my friend brought me some antibiotics for him.

OK that is our update for this past weekend ...

PS: join me tomorrow as I post one of my 'Blast from the Past'