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Monday, February 8, 2010
Here I am again
I'm busy planning mom's 60th birthday party, my first Cocktail party (kudos to me), and then D is turning 10 in August and I would love to have something for him as well.
I'm also running around in the office like a headless chicken doing my work, our temp/learner's that has left and our Field controllers work. I have to be honest and say I'm not nearly getting all work done each day, but hey I'm trying my best.
And then, I've also turned into this health fanatic as I have started 'dieting' (see it more as a lifestyle change) again and have lost 3kg thus far and have also been making more use of my VA contract as I paid it in DEC and never even went once!LOL - am so bad, so putting everything to use....
I've found a new hobby - Mosaic - I absolutely love it and will post some pics as soon as my sexy DH decides to spoil me and buy me a new camera, *nudge nudge, wink wink*, and then I am still doing scrapbooking and need to seriously work more on D's room.
Apart from all of this our TTC plans is on hold and will resume in April again, although I'm not preventing. I've made an appointment with Dr Dasoo who is a gynea/FS, he practises at Bio-Art and at Garden City, for the 8th of April and I am excited, yet scared to see him.
I so want to start my own company planning events and wedding although I'm not to clued up on where to start, but watch this space. Very soon you will hear from me.
D has been so happy to be back at school as they are exchanging periods now and writing in pen so this is like super cool for him. This past weekend he had a project at school on masks and had to actually make one. We had so much fun and the scrapbook gemstones and sequins came in quite handy.
R is also excited for the 8th of April as am I and we are still so inlove and go on date nights at least twice a month.
Well that is it for now!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
ZZZZZZzzzzzzz
I think its got something to do with the fact that 1. I either go to bed to early ... (I normally get into bed by 9, but this past week I've been going to bed at 8 or 8.30pm, which is not so much earlier and I wake at 6) or 2. the fact that I haven't been going to gym this week.
My (.)(.) are also very EINA, especially when I lay on them. I don't think I will get a BFP this month and am not stressing too much about it, that is something I will start worrying about next year.
I cant wait for Christmas to come. I'm so in a hurry for it ... LOL and next week we will be having our year end function. We going bowling and then grabbing a bite at Spur.
Well, Varney is starting with his tantrum throwing so I will update in his blog.
Randy is still ok just stressing about his studies for next year.
And that is it ...
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Blogland
Lately work has been so busy ... we heading towards the silly season ... which means our ATM's will be busy until the 24th Dec and then again on 31 Dec and then everyone is BROKE and the ATM's quiet down again ...
Christmas is just around the corner ... just 7w3d to go until Christmas ... and truthfully I haven't even bought a single gift and am stressing my a$$ off here ... I know now isnt the time to think of gifts as everybody is cash strapped, but at least gifts for the special people in my life ...
Our 2nd anniversary is also coming up and we decided we not going to make a fuss about it ... we just going out for a romantic evening, but we are NOT buying gifts for each other.
I am making progress on my diet having fallen off the wagon and am back at 81kg's and so proud, but what I'm even more proud is I have eaten a choccie in 3 weeks and last night when I was offered I declined. YAY to me!!!!!!!
Varney has developed a phobia, if I can call it that, for his dad. I dont know why but it has been a month since he has gone to his dad and it makes me feel bad, cause it probably looks like I'm keeping him from them.
On the TTC front, we are just going with the flow and leaving it up to God. If it happens we will be happy, if not we will try some day again. Reason, Randy is going to study as of next year and I'm thinking of doing a mosaic course. My manager wants me to do a study programme within the company, so I'm also considering it.
We have not done any more DIY work as we have been very busy, but will start this weekend again.
Well, I think this is it ... will update again ...
lots of huggies and lovies
Kim
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Just another chapter in my life ...
I decided to continue with the pill to see if the witch would go away and I can sadly say she is still here ... note today is CD25 so which means 6 days of AF, 9 days of her leaving and then 10 days of her again ...
So I called my doc who then said that the BCP is too strong for me and that I should stop drinking it and come and see him ... well I drank my last pill on Monday and I can see she is busy packing her bags to leave me ... hopefully ALONE ... LOL
Anyhow my friend has asked me to do a HPT cause she is convinced that I am preggies but I'm not ... so I'm skipping it ...
oh and then I am PISSED at my one friend who had an abortion and then she still has the audacity to say "I had to do what I had to do, I hope u not mad" ... NO, I'm not mad ... I'm FURIOUS ... how can she just decide a healthy unborn's fate ... someone that cannot even make decisions for themselves ... if u don't want a baby keep your legs closed ... I mean you have got 2 kids already and you know where babies come from!!!!!!!!!! OK, this was just me venting.
On a lighter note ... all seems to be going well, beside AF ... Randy is happy, my angel (Varney) is happy and healthy and everything just seems to be falling into place ...
Enjoy your day off tomorrow.
Kim
xoxoxo
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Long time no post ...
after my uncle's funeral I was booked off sick with flu and when I got back we were short staffed so been very hectic on my side ...
Besides, being back at work I have kicked my diet to the curb again and I feel so bad for doing that ... about 5% of me blames my Randy, 10% of me blames my flu and 20% of me blames myself ... but hey I still feel great ...
and I cant complain about the 5% cause right now I'm being treated like a queen ... getting flowers, and teddy's, and cakes, and romantic lunches and suppers ... so hey a girl really cant complain about that ...
to my fellow bloggers ... ASKIES for not following your blogs for the last 2 weeks ... I am definitely going to catch up tomorrow ...
speaking of tomorrow ... seeing that I was sick last week we only having our Spring braai tomorrow ... so nice of my boss to wait until I'm back at work and then having it ...
Ok, you probably want to hear what we have been up to so here goes ...
Randy: loving and still so handsome and sexy ... LOL ... ok still the King in my life and still spoiling me rotten ...
Varney: still so cute and growing at such a rapid pace ... oh BTW ... watch out on his blog as I update on his relationship with his dad ... seems like I'm losing my son ... he sleeps over at his dad's every weekend ... I'm so jealous, but part of me doesnt want to restrict him too much ... his rooom is nearly done so will post some pictures as well ...
Me: doing well ... still have a runny nose and irritating cough but still on 80kg's ... so happy that I didnt pick up ... oh ja and I'm on the pill for this month and next month ... but you probably saw on my ticker ...
Mom, grandma and aunt seems to be coming to terms with the loss of my uncle, I'm really glad all the prayers worked ...
Well until I write again ...
Cheerio and lots of love
Kim
xoxoxo
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Just a note ...
This past weekend we lost my uncle (mom's brother). He was like a dad to us when mom and dad split, so all of us are taking it very hard, especially mom and grandma.
He lost his wife about 4 years ago and now it was his turn to go. It was so sudden, despite the fact that he was in hospital, but that was due to the fact that his leg was amputated on Thursday. He was still doing well on Friday when we went to visit him and he looked so handsome and at peace and he still made us laugh at his jokes and funny comments. He passed away on Saturday and it was horrible seeing my mom crying so much, that she couldn't even speak or breath properly.
Randall, is the best! He is so caring and so supportive during our time of grief. He is so concerned about mom and even took us out for the day on Sunday to take our minds off things.
We finally tiled the 2 bedrooms on Saturday, so it just our bedroom that needs to be tiled and then we have to paint and then we move to the bathroom. This DIY project of ours is so much fun and Varney is enjoying it himself.
He is also doing so much better and he was also in tears, but I think it was mainly because he saw my mom cry so much.
This coming weekend is the funeral, so I will most probably update after the funeral.
To all the special OPM angels:
THANKS FOR THE KIND WORDS AND PRAYERS. IT IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED.
Lots of love
Kim
xoxoxo
Friday, August 14, 2009
This weekend
Tonight we going to be home and play board games the whole night ...
Tomorrow it is down to painting again and if there is time, to go look for the wall stickers
Sunday we going to church and then the afternoon we going out for ice-cream ...
I'm going to be taking pictures of our 'diy' project ...
I went to look for wall stickers at Discount Cash and Carry, but unfortunately they dont have ...
Uhm, what else ... *think, think, think* oh ja, I'm definitely doing my Hip Hop Abs this weekend and will rest on Sunday and uhm ... sjoe I cant remember ... old age I tell ya
Anyways, I hope each and everyone enjoy your weekend with your families ...
Until Monday ...
Mwah
Friday, July 24, 2009
TGIF ... whoop whoop




Thursday, July 2, 2009
All that Jazz!!!
Slept like a baby ... although my nose and ears were blocked ... OK, back to Saturday ...
So I got up, Randy washed the car while I got ready. Varney was lazing around from the one couch to the other, watching movies ... (My gosh, my boy is so big, that he doesn't even care what his mom is up to) ...
I went outside and it was so darn cold and Randy said I should get myself a scarf for my throat. My voice was so hoarse and my mom was teasing me saying that I sound like a Vuvuzela ... LOL ...
Anyhoo, off we went in search of a scarf and we got one after going into 3 shops. So I wrapped the thing around my neck (me is not a scarf person) and I went to drop off Randy at his friend's mom's bday party and went to pick up my school friends ...
To my disappointment Gold Reef City had a power outage and was closed for the day ... my heart was so sore, maybe I was looking out for the day too much ... so we decided to head home ... on our way we decided to rather go to News Cafe ... only 5 of us agreed ... so we went to grab a meal and a drink and then I went home ...
I still had to go to my friend's braai and was only there for 10 minutes ... sorry Taya!!!
Well Sunday I slept the WHOLE day, cause I was really feeling down in the dumps ... and Monday morning when I got up for work Randy refused to take me to work and rather took me to the doctor ... Myself and Randy were booked off from work for 3 days and today I feel much better ... still getting cold and my throat and ears are still sore ...
Varney was very happy that we were at home and as usual got his way with his 'I want' ... LOL
My friend emailed me this morning cause she got her BFP ... for now I cant disclose who it is as she wants to go for bloods first ... Dear Friend ... God is Great ... I hope this bean or beanS stick .... thinking of you .... mwah
Friday, June 26, 2009
TGIF
I'm so looking forward to it even though I feel so CRAPPY!!!
I also have flu now thanks to my wonderful hubby who sweats so much at night and holds me so close ... ok I want him to still hold me close ... but not sweat me wet ... (huh? does that sound right?) Varney's cold seems to be clearing up (touch wood).
I hope I'm not setting myself up for DISAPPOINTMENT, cause I'm so excited for tomorrow. This weekend is gonna be great, reunion tomorrow morning, visiting D, my friends braai and Sunday chillax!!!!
New Moon is beginning to bore me a bit, must be because Edward left Bella. Ah well, will read it on Sunday, I might just finish the book.
Tonight, I'm gonna doctor myself ... med lemon and Stoney here I come!!!
Enjoy your weekend ...
Kim
xoxoxoxo
Monday, June 22, 2009
Woohoo
I can't wait any longer ... to see all my old school mates and catch up ... from the emails that have been going up and down it seems like most of us are married.
I really cant wait and promise to take LOTS of pictures so that I can show you guys.
Just a quick update .... (I must really stop with all these 'quick' updates)
This weekend was fab, although I forgot it was Father's day and had to dash from shop-to-shop on Saturday trying to find Randy the PERFECT gift. Varney had made him two cards so we were actually just looking for a gift, BUT could not find one.
So when we got home I asked him what he would like as we had no gift for him and he said he wants a bottle of Hennessey (sp) which me and Varney bought and wrapped for him - LOL, I know he already knew what his gift was going to be.
Needless to say we spent the day indoors. Randy had a stomach bug and didn't even want to eat, but when I took his favourite dessert from the fridge he could not resist.
Happy Monday Folks!!!!
Monday, June 15, 2009
I'm back ...
I learned so much and never in my life cried so much ... it was a leadership course but more on being the leader of your life ... there were so many underlying events that I was bottling up and hid away from people, but this course made me open up and deal with it ...
I have asked Randy to go on this course as well ... so that he can understand where I'm coming from ...
here are our updates:
Me:
Happy and chirpy ... LOL and I have finally taken the BIG step ... on hormone therapy ... will see how it goes
Randy:
Happy ... thinks I'm going crazy cause all of a sudden I'm so peaceful and happy ... LOL
Varney:
Happy ... he is at home cause the teachers decided to strike ... damn teachers ... but he is happy he still has a runny nose, but other than that he is doing just fine ... I have decided to dedicate a blog to him to journalise his life ... so feel free to pop over ...
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
The day that you were born
My darling son I love you and always will ...
Monday, June 1, 2009
The weekend
So on Friday, I got home and spent some time with him. Nursing him and attending to his every need. We spent the night watching movies while he slept with his head on my thighs, as he did not want to fall asleep in his bedroom alone. When he finally slept I took him to his bed.
On Saturday morning we got up early and I phoned my friend (whose DH is a pharmacist) to get some medication for Varney. I then went to the pharmacy to get it and when I got home he was asleep again. So I finished cleaning (Mom was at a funeral) and Randy went shopping for veggies and then I got into bed again next to Varney.
What a mission it was to get him to eat so that I could give him medicine and when he didn't want food I gave him a yogi-sip and some juice, just so that he had something in his tummy. After his fever broke he was up and wanted to play playstation. Now because he is doing a bit bad at school, we don't actually want him concentrating on playstation too much. So DH's heart was breaking for his little man feeling so feint that he broke in and said yes he can play playstation.
We had a potjie planned for Saturday and wanted to cancel but decided to continue, so I was busy cleaning the veggies, while DH started the fire and Varney played playstation.
Saturday afternoon I decided to wash Varney so that he could put on clean PJ's and that I can rub his body with Puma Balm. He started crying and I could see that he was not feeling well at all. DH calmed him down and then carried him to the lounge so that he could lay on the couch and watch movies. Our guests arrived, but all my attention was with him so I was inside while everyone was laughing and enjoying each other's company outside.
Me and Varney went to bed at 8ish....
On Sunday we spent the day watching movies again and Varney looked much better, although I decided to keep him home today as it is so cold and I don't want his flu to get worse. Luckily my friend brought me some antibiotics for him.
OK that is our update for this past weekend ...
PS: join me tomorrow as I post one of my 'Blast from the Past'
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Update
I have been on leave, as you know, and was supposed to be back on the 15 April, but decided to extend my leave, as I had a few issues to sort out. I came back yesterday, but was flooded with work and still am, but I decided to take a break so that I can update you all, my dear friends.
I had so much fun while on leave, even though we stayed at home. Here is what my diary looked like, just to give you an idea:
Monday, 6 April:
Did some rather overdue spring cleaning and was tired when night came. Also, made some pickled fish to store in the fridge until Good Friday.
Tuesday, 7 April:
Changed all the bedding on the beds and then we were off to the movies. Me and Varney went to watch Monsters VS Aliens. Quite a good movie and we were the only ones in the cinema so we had lotsa fun. We then went shopping afterwards and had something to eat.
Wednesday, 8 April:
we chilled at home and watched some movies, I coloured my hair to red and I washed and blow dried it and then we coloured some Easter colouring pages.
Thursday, 9 April:
I sorted out some few things for the weekend and bought some things we had run out of and then I just relaxed with a Mills & Boons novel, which I finished by Saturday.
Friday, 10 April (Good Friday):
We spent some time with family and had some wonderful fish and mushroom bake.
Saturday, 11 April:
We had a few friends over and just enjoyed each others company.
Sunday, 12 April:
Easter egg hunt for Varney and off to hire some more movies. Did not feel like doing much and felt for no visitors even though we had some uninvited guests, who probably got the drift that we did not want any visitors as they left within 1/2 hour.
Monday, 13 April:
Movies, movies, Easter eggs, movies, Easter eggs.
Tuesday, 14 April:
Getting Varney ready for school, cutting his hair, making sure everything is in his school bag, checking his school clothes, etc.
Wednesday, 15 April - 17 April:
Had a few things to attend to.
Well that's my diary in a nutshell and here is an update on us ...
Varney:
Not coping at school with his reading and numeracy. We have decided that we going to make much more effort on this matter starting with us drawing up a checklist for him and then he has to read 2 pages of his storybook and then we got him some story books and maths books and I am thinking of getting him Bio-Strath. Other then that he is a happy chappy. Schoolwork was not an issue last year or the year before and I'm trying to put a finger on what changed this year. Guess it has something to do with the bullies or the fact that he plays too much play station even though he is limited to weekends only and this has been taken away from him.
Randy:
Well, I thought my husband was coping with the emotions of TTC, after all it was him that wanted us to try again so badly, hence me buying us the Fertile XX and XY. But, when my friend called him last week to tell me that she is pregnant again, with baby no. 3, unplanned, I guess he just couldn't handle it. Well I guess that and 24 months of TTC is enough for him too handle and men cant deal with heartache as much as women can.... which boils down to ...
... Me:
I am in my last official 2WW and if nothing happens this month, we throwing in the towel. I have decided that it wont be fair if I want to keep on trying and DH is just not in the mood to. So we had a talk last night, after he mailed me to tell me how he feels, and we have decided to rather just enjoy each other and have stress-free nookie, rather than timed cycles and having to tell DH "not tonight, cause we had sex last night and we should only have sex every second day". So , maybe and this is a BIG maybe we will try next year again, that is if we feel up to it. But for now, we happy with just having Varney and we taking it one day at a time and for the first time in months I feel stress-free and content with our decision.
After our talk the Fertile XX and XY saw the bottom of the bin and the prenatal vitamins I will give to my friend tonight, when I go to visit her.
Well, I guess that is the end to our TTC journey and an update of my family and my leave.
Until we write again ...
Kim xoxoxo
Friday, April 3, 2009
Friday Fever ...

Monday, March 30, 2009
Happy Monday Update

Yip, it's Monday again. I hope all my fellow bloggers and friends got some rest this weekend? I know I did, even though our weekend was planned to be busy we ended up lazing around.
On Friday, we went home and parked the car and watched some movies, even though we were supposed to go to a friend. On Saturday, same thing, cleaned the house, watched movies and the soccer and a friend of ours came over and yesterday we were at home the whole day as well.
Boring, but rest well needed.
Well on my side my family is doing well ...
Devandre:
Well, he is a hand full, and I'm beginnig to think it might be cause he is an only child. He is very hyper and loves playing and making jokes, but yesterday he was super naughty. He got out of the bath and instead of using toilet paper, he took his towel and blew his nose and laughed at what he had done. I was so mad at him, that I gave him 3 spanks on his bottom and then he cried and ran to his room and got dressed. I let him cry himself out and then he came to me and apologised and then asked for rice crispies and milk. After I made some for him, he wanted me to watch TV with him and we lay on his bed watching TV and he fell asleep.
Randall:
Well he is doing great. Really growing and maturing and I love him more each day. He is still taking his multivitamin and his Fertile XY.
Me:
I'm doing well. Feel much better then I did last week. Although, I think my reproductive system is working overtime, might be due to the Fertile XX I'm taking. My ovaries are twinging and I've got a dull ache in my lower abdomen, but AF should be here by Thursday, so will see what's instore for us.
I just realised last night that we have been TTC for 24 months, 16 months seriously and 12 months post LAP. We have walked a long journey alone, we might need to seek some help.
Take care and enjoy the rest of the week
Kim
Thursday, March 19, 2009
My thougths
I try and try to think about the positives in my life. About all I have - my family, my friends, my son, my marriage, my job, my car, the roof over my head, the clothes on my back, the food on my table and everything I have achieved.
But still, still 'evil' thoughts start taking over my unrelaxed mind. Thoughts of envy, thoughts of hatred, thoughts of loneliness.
I think of my life and it somehow feels disorientated. Out of sync. I feel lonely and scared. Fear takes over my body as sweat rushes down. I fear not being able to conceive ever again. I fear losing my son or my husband. I fear losing my job. I fear it all.
I know I'm not supposed to feel this way, but I do. Worst of all I wanna really try my best and my all to conceive. I feel I have not tried everything in my grasp. I'm ovulating as we speak, but I'm so scared that I will not conceive this month. I so want to have a baby now. I'm more then ready. Somehow I think this will fulfill my life: to make my husband a father. Not that he isn't a father already. He is a great dad for D. But for him to have his own blood running through his child's veins. I sometimes pray to God, to let me conceive even if I loose the baby at least I know I can conceive again and then find answers to why I am loosing. But, the other times, when I share the heartache and tears of my friends that have lost I pray to God to not put me through the loss of a baby or child ever.
I remember one night when me and R were laying and speaking. Speaking about how long we knew each other yet it took us so long to realise we were meant to be together. And what he mentioned had me thinking. Why did we waste so much time? Why didnt we start dating way back then, then Varney would have been his biological son. But then I thought further if it were to happen back then we would have not been together today. So I'd rather have waited so long, until we were both matured to be in a marriage and to give Varney the best.
I'm so scared he will get to miss out on a chance of really becoming a daddy. Because everyone around me seems to be falling preggies, like my friend at work (we started trying together in Dec 07) fell preggies last year Nov, but had a miscarriage in Dec. Now 3 months down the line she is preggies again. I am happy for her, but a part of me wishes it was me instead.
Will I ever get a chance again?
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Letter to my son
I am sitting here thinking about you. About the way you laugh when we play, about the way you get so mad when I tease you, about the way you look at me when you sick and the way you admire me for being your mother. About how you always grab Daddy from behind to give him a big hug or the way you always sneak up to tickle me or Daddy.
These are all thoughts that brings tears of joy and a smile to my face. You are a remarkable young boy and as I stare at your picture on my desk next to my PC, I am overwhelmed by how strong you are.
You have been through alot at a mere age of 8. Keeping me on my toes and taking your temperature every 10 minutes when you sick. Feeling sick myself and not being able to concentrate on anything. You've been in and out of hospital since your birth and still you rise. From the sickness, from the pain ... to glory and to fame.
You are my little man and for you I would do anything and everything in my power. You have brought so much joy to my life and you have made Daddy mature into the fine man that he is today. (Though he might not have noticed or might have, but didn't know what to say.)
Its a joy and a privilege having you in my life through the sickness and the health and I will not trade it for anything in the world.
Sometimes you can make me so mad at other times sad, but then I think of what a miracle you are and I am filled with peace and love.
I will always love you and you will always be my little man.
All my love
Mom
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Update
We are looking for places to go on holiday, although it will only be in October with Randy's bday, we want to start planning now already. Especially with the economy looking so gloomy.
This will be our first family holiday and last night when I told Varney he turns and says to me "No, I don't wanna go. You can go on your own. I wanna live with mommy." (Mommy being my mother). Then I explained to him that our holiday is just for a weekend away and that seemed to make him eager to go. So we have decided on going to Koppisol and will be joined by our friends King and Tan and their daughter. So now it's off to planning for me.
So apart from all this hype in our lives there is the meningitis issue in JHB where 4 children have already passed on - RIP. Although I took Varney for a vaccination and trusting in God, I can't help but stress about this. I really hope and pray the government can be more considerate and do something about this. Some info on meningitis:
Signs and symptoms
Meningitis and septicaemia (blood poisoning) are not always easy to recognise, and symptoms can appear in any order. Some may not appear at all. In the early stages, the signs and symptoms can be similar to many other more common illnesses, for example flu.Trust your instincts. If you suspect meningitis or septicaemia, get medical help immediately.Early symptoms can include fever, headache, nausea (feeling sick), vomiting (being sick), and muscle pain, with cold hands and feet.A rash that does not fade under pressure (see ‘The Glass Test’) is a sign of meningococcal septicaemia. This rash may begin as a few small spots anywhere on the body and can spread quickly to look like fresh bruises.
The spots or rash are caused by blood leaking into the tissues under the skin. They are more difficult to see on darker skin, so look on paler areas of the skin and under the eyelids. The spots or rash may fade at first, so keep checking. However, if someone is ill or is obviously getting worse, do not wait for spots or a rash to appear. They may appear late or may not appear at all.
The Glass Test
Spots or a rash will still be seen when the side of a clear drinking glass is pressed firmly against the skin
This past weekend me and Varney started scrapbooking and it was so much fun. We're not done yet, but as soon as we will be I will post some pictures. Scrapbooking really helps one relax.
Apart from that I am happy to announce that I have lost 1kg - Hooray!!!!!
The diet/lifestyle change is still going okay. I have started drinking multivitamins and have gotten Randy to drink some too.
All in all me and my family are doing great.